and i u n f o l d

Y’know how sometimes you really want something, but when you get it, it’s like “Oh” and just anti-climatic? That’s how I felt today.

Today was my last exam, which was… hellish. But I just didn’t care anymore; it was for Decision Making, which has been the bane of my existence this semester. I didn’t understand half of the stuff that was going on; and frankly, for the most part, I just couldn’t be bothered. If I can somehow get through wit a B-/B, I’ll be satisfied. I really really hate Science modules with a passion. They’re not my forte, at all. Grrrrr.

So, exams are over… and while I’m glad, it’s a little anticlimatic. As usual. I have no real summer plans except to get a freakin’ job so there’s nothing in particular to look forward to. Just the usual reading books, vegging at home, spending time online and occassionally going out. I was thinking of going to the beach and renting rollerblades, ‘cos I haven’t done that in so long.

On a random note, I’ve kinda been listening to John Stevens’ rendition of Mandy. Hee. I actually like it; I think he did a good job and it’s such an improvement. I wasn’t really surprised that he’ still in, given that many people at his thread at TWoP were powervoting for him; but I woujld have loved to see Diana/Jasmine eliminated instead. Those two are just… blah. This season has been blah in general; there are some good singers but they just don’t inspire any kind of extended interest. Or maybe I’ve just been spoiled by Clay (especially since AI2 was my first AI-viewing experience).

My mom saw the Maroon 5 ad (’cos they’re in the spotlight on Channel [V]; I wish I had Channel [V]!), and she said “their sound is good” which tickled me. All those repeated listenings to their album must have had an insidious effect on her. Heh heh. ;)

*kicks computer*

Damnit. I just found out that there’s a MTV Diary of OTH, and I managed to download the first part (which is about Hilarie; she seems quite cool actually). And I want the rest (Chad! James! Joie!) but since my computer is being a fuckwit, I can’t log onto the site that has it and hence, I can’t download.

Grrrrrrrr.

Stupid computer. *evil glare*

I can’t remember how the conversation veered that way, but Cal and I were drooling over Ian Somerhalder. Yet another hottie to add to the models-turned-actors list. Heehee.

2 exams down, 2 to go. I’m feeling not-too-stressed about my next one on Wednesday ‘cos I think I know the material pretty well. And I managed to finish reading The Education of Cyrus! *pats self on back* That was my aim, so I’m dead pleased about that. And since I pretty much attended all the lectures, I’m feeling quite okay about Comparative Political Thought. :)

I had dinner with Cal and Vel after my exams just now. After been subjected to a musical blast from the past thanks to McDonalds’ (seriously, they were playing songs from the 80s and 90s, and what was sad was that we recognized all of them), Cal and I got stuck on the Bus Ride From Hell. It was so funny, yet exasperating. I don’t know exactly what happened, or why, but the bus we were on was going really reaaaly slow. It was just weird. And a ride that usually takes 10-15 minutes took nearly half an hour instead. Oy.

My computer is acting up again. I don’t know why. *sigh* Just in case though, I transferred all my Alias episodes, Maroon 5 stuff, mp3s and other stuff to my laptop. I swear, I need to decide what to do with the 12 OTH episodes in my laptop. They’re taking up way too much space; I need to decide if I wanna burn them or just erase them.

Speaking of OTH, I’m so woefully behind. I last watched ep13, I think… and they’re already up to 18 (19, this week). Sadly, given the lack of popularity of OTH, the Bittorents are mostly gone. The last few episodes are still available, but I bet the download will take really long since not too many people are downloading. I dunno if I should just give up on the show, or try to keep up. Gaaaah.

I watched Saturday Night Fever with my mom last night. It was entertaining and fun. And it felt like I listened to every single Bee Gees songs ever made. Heh. The dancing was just wonderful; I loved that best. :)

I’ve been thinking: I wonder how my mom would react if I asked her to get me the JM/M5 tickets (or rather, those with the M&G passes) for my birthday. I really can’t think of anything I really want as a gift. And, well, I really covet those tickets. And, as of right now, I’m too broke to pay for them myself. Mmmm… I keep saying this, but I really should/need to get to a job. That’s totally against my slacker mentality, but it has to be done. Gah.

I really can’t study at home; I know this, yet half the time I’m too lazy to venture out and study elsewhere. But after two days of non-productivity, I was feeling guilty. I had planned to meet Cal in her neck of the woods, but I didn’t feel up to making the trip there (I say this like it’s such a long way, when it’s probably about an hour-ish bus ride. Heh).

I did, however, manage to drag myself to a Starbucks where I found myself a corner and proceeded to spend 4 hours there. Heh heh. I had a Venti vanilla latte and a lovely chocolate cake to keep me company while I tried to make some sense of Nietzsche (I still don’t quite get him, by the way) and read up on Leninism and Maoism. (There’s just something fun about reading about Marxism while doing my bit for capitalism by drinking at Starbucks. Hee!) I was at times momentarily distracted: interesting conversations around me, a adorable little boy running around and looking at stuff inquisitively, thoughts of Chad in a Starbucks (Hee!) and mouthing along to M5 songs blaring through my ear phones; but I got work done. Which was good. :)

My weekend’s gonna be quite busy, not with studying unfortunately. My youngest cousin is having a birthday party tomorrow, and I’m watching Saturday Night Fever on Sunday night (the night before my Contemporary Political Ideologies exam!). I’ve still got a bunch of reading to do, so I think I’ll be holed up at a corner of my aunt’s place and avoiding any kind of participation in birthday games (Oy!). Thanks goodness I took Western Political Thought last semester, cos the first half of the Pol Ideologies class is a rehash of that.

They just started playing The O.C. here, which livens up my tv-viewing experience at least. I’m enjoying it so far (we’re only up to episode 2), and Adam Brody is just so EFFING adorable. Even my mom said he’s cute, and that he looked familiar (when I told her he was Dave, she was like “Oh, yeah, I remember now.” Heehee). Amazingly, I don’t hate Ryan/Ben McKenzie as much as I anticipated I would although I still don’t think much of Mischa-what’s-her-face. Chris Carmack, on the other hand, is just so damn pretty. Heh.

Speaking of the pretty, I’m reminded of a few nights ago (last week, I think) when Cal and I went on a models-turned-actors spree and basically just had a drool-fest. Heh. That was quite amusing. We checked out Chris Carmack, which somehow led to Drew Fuller (the cute guy on Charmed, who has the most beautiful green eyes and is really quite gorgeous) and ended with Tom Welling (who is just so goddamn beautiful). Siiigh. I think my eyes went on overload that night.

I’m still on a Maroon 5 kick. And I’m still bummed that they were in Australia but didn’t stop by Asia. Gaaaah. Oh well. No one I’m really into has come by in recent times anyway. There’s supposed talk that JC might come by Asia, but I’m not putting any stock in it. Although with my luck, he’ll come while I’m in NC. I swear, I’m gonna be so pissed off at the world if the bands/singers I like come here only when I’m out of the damned country. *evil glare*

Imagine: this time next week, my exams will be over. Hurrah! Until then, I suffer.

I’m feeling surprisingly lucid despite the fact that I had only about 3 hours of sleep. And it wasn’t even quality sleep; I woke up feeling as though I hadn’t slept at all. Twas weird. I had to wake up at the crack of dawn (i.e. 6.30am) ‘cos I had my paper at 9am. Mehh. That wasn’t too much fun, but like I said, I didn’t feel particularly tired which I suppose is good.

Does this mean that having less sleep is better than having more? Oh, say it isn’t so! That’s unnatural or something. ;)

So, one paper down, three more to go. And about a week to study. Not too bad actually. Plus, I got back two of my essays and I got A- for both which means that this semester I’ve scored A- for all my essays. Wheee! I feel so proud. Go me! I may actually bring up my CAP *gasp*. Which would be really great. Surprising, but good.

Even more shocking is the fact that I’m actually been fairly productive today. After my paper, instead of going home and sleeping (which was my instinctual choice), I studied! I parked myself at Starbucks, got me a Grande mocha and read up on Marxism (which is very fascinating and enlightening actually).

The bad thing about having laryngitis is the inability to sing along to songs. No, seriously. It’s something that I do without even thinking about it, and for the past few days, I haven’t been able to do it. It’s… weird. Heh. Luckily my voice is slowly coming back; went to doctor yesterday and got some cough mixture and lozenges. But now, I need to consciously stop myself from singing along to stuff ‘cos I’m not supposed to overuse my voice. Oy.

I really wanna watch The Prince & Me. It looks like a cute movie. I need to convince someone to go watch it with me. Heehee.

I am having way too much fun looking at pictures of M5 at Wireimage. Hee! 427 pictures! I only have access to the little itty bitty ones since I’m not a member; but still, it’s fun. And Adaaaaam! And they’re all so adorable and boyband-y. Heh heh. And it’s so so wrong (in a really right way) that I’m unendingly fascinated with Adam’s really low-slung jeans. Mmmm… *stares* He’s so lanky! It shouldn’t be so hot, but it is! I miss Adam’s hair; his hair was so cute. [/shallow] Something about Adam Levine reduces me to incoherent fangirly gushing. Heeeelppp! *pause* Or not. I’m quite enjoying the Adam-fangirly-ness actually. Heehee!

Their cover of “Frontin’” is on repeat. Aaaah, I love it! I would die to see this live. Gaaah.

EDIT: Upon re-reading this, I realized that I was a bit exclamation-mark-happy. Hmm. Must be the caffeine.

Aishah messaged me and told me that our UNC course registration results are out. I got American Political Thought, which I’m really keen on, Major Issues in Political Theory, Medieval History and History of Western Civilization to 1650. I’m thinking of dropping one of the History courses to take The Romans, which I really want to take. So… we’ll see. I’m quite pleased with my schedule so far though. :)

So, now, I just really need to get through my exams before I can think about going to NC and all the fun that entails. ;) Wilmy! Meeting Chad! JM & M5 in concert! Among other things. Hopefully. Heehee.

In other news, I am still a procrastinor. (Quelle surprise!) Still got laryngitis; I think it’s worse now ‘cos when I try to speak, absolutely nothing comes out. Hence, a trip to the doctor tomorrow. Meehh. I’ve got my first exam on Tuesday (Tuesday! That’s barely two more days! Eek.), which is not something to look forward to. I console myself with the thought that in two weeks, this whole exam-business will be over, and I can happily plan next semester. Heehee.

I adore this layout. Or rather, I adore Adam Levine. But I’ll get into that later.

I’m beyond psyched about the new domain. Cal & I didn’t have too great a time with the previous hosting company, so anything after that would be a step up, but I think this time around it’ll be much, much better. We have a lot more space, quite a bit of bandwidth, and we’ve resolved to actually be y’know active with the domain. Heh. The domain layout is gonna be really great. ;) Okay, maybe “great” is an exaggeration, but it’ll definitely be amusing!

It was a bit of a bitch transferring my Greymatter archive from unperfection, but it worked out in the end. And even though I should have been studying the past few days, I haven’t at all. Instead, I spent time on this layout, went out with my friends, watched TV… and somehow got laryngitis. Yeah, my voice is totally gone. The funny thing is I don’t know how it happened. Hmmm.

Anyway. This layout features my current obsession. Adam Levine of Maroon 5. I got into them really quickly actually; I’ve only been seriously listening to them for about two or three weeks, although I had been lusting after Adam ever since I saw the “This Love” video. Then I started downloading live clips, their performances and checked out all their sites; and suddenly, I’m obsessed. I think Cal is sick of hearing about him and M5, especially since she doesn’t understand the love. Heehee. ;)

I have so so much love for Adam Levine. (I have this habit of referring to him as Adam Levine, rather than just Adam, which I suppose makes it easier to differentiate between him and Adam Brody. Heh heh.) Ask me why… and I probably won’t be able to put it quite into words. It’s not just because I think he’s so damn attractive; there’s something else too. I love his voice, I love his lyrics and I love watching him perform (Must. See. M5. Live. *crosses fingers*). And I don’t know- I just like him. Heehee.

I’m still trying to settle all the details on my UNC semester so I can’t buy tickets to John Mayer/M5 until that’s all confirmed. I am so tempted to catch them in NY too. And I’m half-tempted to spend an obscene amount of money for the fanclub PACs, which gives you preferred seating, a t-shirt, a pass and entry to a meet & greet. It costs US$95 (which is $160 for me) and another US$30 to join the fanclub. Like I said, it’s a lot of money, and the fact that I was actually considering it is kinda scary. Especially since I’m currently broke-ish. Damn, being a fangirl is expensive.

I’m slowly gaining an appreciation for the other guys too, particularly after watching them on “Celebrity Room Raiders”, which was amusing to say the least. Plus, it’s not like they’re chopped liver; they’re all actually cute in their own way. But yeah, I do have a special fondness for Adam. :)

So, yes. Pretty Adam. Pretty layout. *pets layout*

Hmmmph. I suppose I really should hit the books. I am such a slacker. Gah.

EDIT: Eeeee! I didn’t know Adam had grown his hair out! I was getting used to the buzz-cut, but he’s just too adorable with hair. Heh. [/shallow]

EDIT (again): Gah. It seems that the pic was from April last year. Geez. Yes, that was me, getting overexcited. Heh. He’s still hot though. ;)