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Dance performance today. Cal came down with her cousin (she’s your cousin, right?) and a few of my other friends who lived in the area dropped by too. It went quite well; a few screw-ups on my part but nothing too obvious, I hope. I suppose I can’t judge that till I see the video. Heh. But it was fun. The crowd was a little weird, insofar that they were a quiet bunch but it was mostly families and stuff and I suppose you can’t expect them to be totally enthused about hip-hop dance. Heh heh.

So, after seemingly non-stop dance this week (what with rehearsals and practices), I finally have a reprieve. *sigh* I just wanna stay at home and vegetate, but I’ve got some plans this coming week. Meeting some friends tomorrow to just hang out. PoA on Thursday (Eeeeee!). Wedding and dinner with UNC people on Sunday. And I think I’ve got some family thingy going on too sometime during the week. Gah.

My brother has been pissing me off. The less said about that, the better.

Photos here! From today’s dance thingy. Also, pictures from Saturday when I was out with friends. You check out my new (or not-so-new, since it’s been about a month) mod haircut and my Tinkerbell skirt (ain’t it cute?). Heehee.

I like fotopages.com. One of these days, I will sort through the million Roman holiday pictures and put them up. Yessiree. It will be done. ;)

So, okay. The AI3 finale performances underwhelmed me. I wouldn’t have watched except that my mom asked me to tape it for her since she’s working the night shift.

Underwhelmed. This whole season has just been lacklustre to me, and I really don’t care who wins. It was a bad idea for them to sing songs that they’ve done already. Bo-ring. I was like, whatever. And the judges really cannot be more obvious about the pimping.

Anyway. Watching it reminded me of the AI2 finale, and how psyched I was for it. ‘Cos y’know… Claaaay! Which led me to my Clay-media downloading spree. For the last three hours. I mean, I thought *NSYNC fans are resourceful and all-knowing and all-having… but damn, the ClayNation beats them hands down. clay-media.com probably has every single Clay audio/video clip ever. I just went CRAZY. And with so many choices, it was hard to decide which clips from which concert to download. Heehee. The great thing is that most of the clips are of pretty good quality. :)

The point? I have so so much Clay-love. Boy has a damn good voice. He can sing pretty much anything. I really like listening to him sing. (And dude, him singing the first verse of Without You live? Gah. So good.) I need to see him in concert.

Anyway. I e-mailed Kate, the lady at UNC who does admissions stuff, about my I-20 stuff and she said that it’ll apparently be ready end May/early June. I was just relieved that it wasn’t lost in the mail and wasn’t approved or something. So, that lessens my anxiety a little. Heh.

Oh, and I’ve been invited to this dinner with some UNC kids who are here on some kind of summer program. Aishah’s going too, so I won’t feel so alone. Heh. It’ll be fun, I think. I hope. And it’d be nice to possibly make friends before actually stepping into UNC. ;)

To cap off this stellar day [/sarcasm], with my sucky C and the apparent news that Alias S4 won’t be aired until January next year, it seems that evonness, one of the Goddesses of Sarkney Fic, is discontinuing and taking down Dark Knight. A story that is pretty damn high on my list of favourites ever.

I feel bereft. I feel traumatised. No more Dark Knight. No more Sarkney fic from evonness. I don’t even wanna think about the whole no-Sark-on-my-screen-until-next-year thing. Sniff.

Note to self: Buy the S2 DVD set as soon as humanly possible.

Exam results were out today.

As always, I could have done better, but I’m quite satisfied. Surprisingly, I did helluva lot better for Decision-Making than I ever expected: I got a B+. Weird. I guess the group project I was involved in really brought my grade up, ‘cos I did badly for the mid-term and wasn’t too thrilled about the final.

The one grade that PISSED ME OFF is my C for International Security. I was like “What the FUCK?” I got an A- for the term paper, did well for the article report and for my presentation- all of which comprised 40% of the grade. And I didn’t think I did badly for the final at all- I thought I did all right. So I don’t understand at all by the fuck I have a C. It baffles my mind. I’m thinking of getting a review for the exam, but all that gives me is a re-checking of the calculation of the scores, not a re-marking or a review of why the hell I ended up with a C. And that would cost me $10. So, I don’t know if I wanna do that. But this damned C dragged my CAP down. Grrrrrr. Fuckin’ hell.

That led a little freak-out just now. I started thinking about whether I’ll be able to do Honours, when my CAP isn’t as high as it should be. ‘Cos there’s no point doing Honours and only getting a Second Lower. No point. Which means that if I still can’t bring my CAP up (which translates to getting As, pretty much) by this time next year, I might as well just graduate without doing Honours. But if I do that, that limits my choices if I wanna do post-grad stuff, ‘cos most graduate schools require a B.A. with Honours. So, I’m screwed.

*bashes head against desk*

In other oh-fuck-I-might-be-screwed news, I found from Aishah from she got her I-20 stuff 2 weeks ago. 2 weeks. Damn. Where the hell is mine? Argh. The thing that consoles me is that Cheryl hasn’t gotten hers also, so I’m not the only one who hasn’t gotten it yet. Still. Me = worried

Gaaaaah. I don’t wanna think about school-stuff anymore. Hurts my head. *sigh*

ETA: Ehhh. The date is all screwed up. It’s Tuesday already. Heh.

I am so so tired.

The past few days have been a little crazy. I had dance practice on Friday night (which was basically Hell ‘cos 18 counts of choreography was thrown at us in the space of 2 hours to Missy Elliot’s “I’m Really Hot”, which has a really fast beat), went to a birthday party on Saturday night (which was quite fun, actually), went to my grandma’s for Mothers’ Day on Sunday. Monday was Rest Day, but I had dance on Tuesday night (which was Hell-lite) and dance again today followed by dinner with friends (fun fun fun, too much laughing!). Off to see Troy today (Braaaad! Orrrrliiiii! GUH.), dance again on Friday and another b-day party on Saturday. Phew. I am a busy little bunny.

Dance is kicking my ass, obviously. Performance at the end of the month, which will be fun. The process is tiring as hell, but it’s fun in its own way. :) Plus, it’s not like I have anything else to fill my holiday time. The choreography is really nice, I like it a lot. It’s difficult, but it looks damn good when you get it right. It has a very, very hip-hop groove. Hee.

I hate the weather. It’s so so fuckin’ hot, it’s killing me. And my air-con is giving me trouble. HATE.

I haven’t gotten my I-20 and other admission stuff from UNC. I’m getting antsy. And I don’t wanna get the JM/M5 tickets until I get that stuff, in case something screws up with my admission. Gaaaah.

Sleeeep. I need to sleep.

There was dance class today but *gasp* I didn’t go. I was too tired, and my muscles still hadn’t recovered from Monday’s exertions. Didn’t help that I was on the phone with Cal until like 5am, discussing Alias and the Hotness that is Sark. And oh holy crap he is so effing HOT.

I’ve been seriously considering writing a Draco/Hermione fic. Someone posted a challenge to write a story in 5 chapters, using 5 songs (essentially 5 songfics that make up a story) and I’ve been contemplating it. Well, actually, more than contemplating it. I kinda have a plot in mind, and the 5 songs to go with it… but knowing how it’s become impossible for me to write short stories, and the fact that there needs to be some kind of development in D/Hr fics, it might end up a lot longer than I would like it to be. And I’m unsure if I can write Draco the way I want him to be in my story. So yeah… I’m still playing around with the idea though. :)

Plus, there’s still the fact that I have other unfinished fics that sorely need my attention. Stories that I want to finish… but somehow I can’t find the will/inspiration to write. Damnit.

I was just thinking of being a part of fandom and how much committment it takes to be active in fandom. Posting at message boards, LJ and the like and being part of a community takes a lot of devotion and time. And I find that for the most part I usually am not committed enough to do so. The only exception so far has been for Gilmore Girls. I mean, I’m a huge fan of Draco/Hermione and Alias and *NSYNC and I was very interested in OTH, but it was/is difficult for me to keep up with all the discussions and the posts and all that stuff. And I can’t imagine how much more time I’d spend online if I was actually active in all the fandoms I’m interested in.

It’s only been a week since exams ended, but I’ve gone a little crazy with boredom. Half of the problem is that there really isn’t much to do, and the other half is that the things that I should be doing I don’t wanna do which is always the damn case, anyway.

I have dance next week (Yay!), so I’m excited about that even though I have to drag myself to school for practice. I need to get my ass to the library and pick up my reserved books; I managed to borrow some the last time I was at a library, but I’ve finished reading the two books that interested me while I just can’t get into the others. Gah. I’m thinking of dragging myself to a book rental place or rent from justbooksonline.com just so I can read my favourite type of romance novels. Or… I could read Atlas Shrugged like I’ve been meaning to. And Cal’s lending me Diana Gabaldon’s Dragonfly In Amber so I can read that and not let my brain cells completely degenerate. (Heh.)

I’ve been reading Sarkney fic today. I found mad-love.nu and, to my shipper joy, found some fics that I hadn’t read before. That’s always nice. :)

And I’ve been a haze of Adam-lust, which seems to be the norm nowadays. I was on a downloading spree today and I think I’ve pretty much downloaded everything from maroon-5.com. Heehee. And dude! I just about died when I saw the clip from the VH1 I Love The 80s thingy. Adam! In glasses! *DEAD* That is just about the hottest thing I’ve seen in a while. Mmmmm. Adam is usually all kinds of sex-ay, but in glasses (cute, nerdy, black-rimmed glasses no less!) he is freaking lethal. Guh. And after I recovered from that, I watched the This Love video like a bazillion times, ‘cos oh holy crap he is so effing hot in that video. I miss his tousled hair. Tres hot.[/shallow] I can’t wait for the SWBL video!

It didn’t help that I found new M5 pics to drool over. They’re all so cute! I can’t believe Ryan & Jesse got their hair buzzed too. So now when I see a buzzed head in pictures, I have to look more closely to see who it is. Heh. Adam is a leftie! I totally didn’t know/expect that, especially since he holds his mic in his right hand usually and plays his guitar with his right too. And I really covet those damned M&G passes.

In more mundane news, I cut my hair. No more wavy hair. *sniff* Everyone’s been telling me I look different, which is kinda cool. It took me a while to get used to it. My hair’s straight now, and I have bangs (which I just love) and it’s… very mod. Especially when I iron my hair, so that all my flippy ends are straight. I actually really like it, even though I usually dislike my hair when it’s straight. Michelle, the lovely lady who cut my hair, is so my new favourite hairstylist. I went to her last year for a haircut and a perm and I really liked what she did and I like this new hairstyle as well. I’m never going anywhere else for a haircut. Heh.

My mom had this $50 voucher so we kinda went crazy at the supermarket and bought $50 worth of junk food. Chips. Marshmallows. Brownie mix. Cookies. Chocolate. I’ve been munching on those lovely Hershey Kisses for the past two days. I think I ate at least half the bag. So so nice and yummy. I want more. Those things are addictive, yo.

I need something to do. Boredboredbored.