and i u n f o l d

I’m in a mood. I don’t enjoy it yo. I just feel so down, for no actual tangible reason. I’d put it down to PMS… but, I dunno. So, for the safety of family members, I’ve sequestered myself in my room and spent the past hour or so at the teh music LJ community, which just might be the BEST. LJ Community. EVER. *hugs folder of new music*

And I was listening to BBMak’s “Back Here”. Hehehehe. For an upbeat song, it has pretty depressing lyrics. “More Than Words Can Say” by Alias is playing right now… also, sad. Geeeeez. *headdesk*

I know that I have an essay due on Wednesday morning… but I currently have zero motivation to even start thinking about it. Baaaaaad. I have a presentation on Tuesday too, which I am also unprepared for. Wow, these next few days are gonna be so much fun as I try to finish these assignments under pressure.

I feel tired. I wanna sleep. I was out today with the family and my cousin (and her young children) and my aunt. It wasn’t a long day, but somehow it just wore me out. And I realize how much I dislike going to town on the weekends. The crowds are too much… it gives me a headache yo. And navigating the crowds (with two strollers) is just not fun.

Aaaah. Happy, upbeat music! I’m listening to the dance mix for the Kazi performance today. Heh. Ooooh, “Caught Up” in the mix! Soooo much love for that song. Hmmm… if that’s music for a guys’ dance, it would be hotttt yo. *happy mental images of guys who can dance… mmmm* Oh… hee! There’s a Korean song in the mix!

Eeee! I’m excited about seeing a video clip of the performance. The dance mix has gotten me intrigued. Waaaaaaaaah. Wish I was there. :( I miss dancing with them all. Oh pooey.

*back to the mood*

I’m gonna go wrap myself in my comforter, cuddle up with Juju, listen to my “sappy songs” playlist and get some sleep.

Tomorrow, I’ll be better at trying to be productive.

I am bored out of my freakin’ mind.

This whole day has just been BLAH. Meichan asked me if I wanted to go watch a movie, but seriously, there isn’t anything out that I’m interested in wasting $6.50 on watching. Instead, I’ve napped, finished reading a book and watched AI4. Even AI4 didn’t amuse me. I was actually looking toward to the actual singing competition part of the show… but, today was disappointing. The guys didn’t bring it. It was just a lot of MEH.

I’ve got a class tomorrow (and it’s the 3-hour snoozefest). I’m tempted not to go, but I figure that would be a bad idea cos (a) I haven’t really done much reading in that class and (b) there’s dance in the afternoon anyway so I might as well go since I’ll be in school.

Many things to do! I have 3 things next week: a test, a presentation and a paper that is due. Have I actually done anything? No. *headdesk* Aaaarghhh.

I had Tristan (my laptop) reformatted the other day, after the fiasco with that damned failed Windows Update installation. Then I went to the computer helpdesk to get my wireless configured (cos I got a PC card on loan, since I still can’t find mine! Grrrr). The dude said that the people who did the reformatting did a lousy job, which wasn’t very reassuring really. Oy. I dunno; somehow I feel like the system is less stable now. And while I did back up most of the stuff I wanted to keep, I realized that I didn’t back up my music! So I’ve been at iPodLounge, trying to find a way to copy music from Juju (my iPod) back to Tristan. And there are a few programs that do it, which is great. I need to get around to doing that one of these days. The great thing about having an iPod is that there’s a lot of technical support, usually from other users. iPodLounge is awesome… cos if you have a question, chances are someone there will have an answer. :)

Still bored. Sigh.

The field trip to the zoo wasn’t totally horrendous. Hahahah. Sure, it was sunny as hell, humid as hell and there were mosquitoes… but it wasn’t that bad. On the upside, I now know someone else in that class. Hahahha. (The resolution to be more social is clearly not getting off to a good start.)

Apart from our prof, this guy (who’s a botanist and works at the biodiversity museum) took half of around the zoo (I was in his group). You know how I’ve said that geeky-ish guys with a passion are hot? Well, he was another example (though he wasn’t really geeky-ish). He was talking about plants (and let me tell you, that is not the much stimulating subject), and I was pretty riveted. Hahhaha. Cos it was clear that it’s his passion and he was just so knowledgeable about it…. and well, that was kinda hot. LOL.

Anyway. After that, I met my mom. She wanted to go see this art exhibition by Fernando Botero. But! She wasn’t sure which museum it was at. And so we went on a wild goose chase. The History Museum was closed for renovation, so evidently it wasn’t there. It wasn’t at the Asian Civilizations Museum either… rather, it was at the Art Museum. *facepalm* We were gonna haul ass to the Art Museum (by this time, I was pretty pissed, actually), and then my mom realized that his sculptures were on display at the Esplanade park anyway. So, we just walked there.

My mom still wants to see the exhibition though. I told her to go by herself, but she didn’t want to. Heh.

Starbucks has finally gotten a clue and started serving iced caramel macchiatos. Geeeez. I remember one time when I wanted an iced one, and asked the barista if she could just add some ice to the hot version of it. All I got in return was a blank look. Nice one. *facepalm* After that, I didn’t bother. But now, finally it’s on the freaking menu! About damn time.

It’s now the one week 4-day mid-semester break. The idiots who decided that school should re-open on Friday should be stoned. Would it have killed them to just extend it so that we get one damn week? Blooody hell.

Looking at my organizer, I realize I have a lot of things coming up. AKA work that needs to be done. Blaaaaah. Mid-semester is always a killer.

My concentration is so off. I’ve been feeling very restless. Aaaargh.

The one thing that has made me reaaaally happy….. is getting a cheque for $600 in the mail! Wooooo! Good times. It’s from my insurance claim for my delayed baggage. Some of it’s going to my mom, but I think most of it will be mineeeeee. Hehehehehe.

It’s been a long-ass day. I was in school today from 10-6, although in actuality I only have 4 hours of class. That’s 4 hours of waiting. Not too much fun.

Then I watched a dance concert. I don’t wanna name names cos I don’t want this entry to show up if someone searches. Suffice to say, it’s a dance group that does modern jazz and is from an institute of higher learning. It was pretty entertaining, but it’s not really my cup of tea. I’m a hip-hop-dance-loving girl to the core. Street jazz, yeah. Funk, yeah. Modern jazz? Not so much.

Anyway, tonight made me realize how much I love dancing. And how much I miss it. I mean, I’m still dancing now, but there’s no end goal like a competition or a performance. I am really gonna start taking dance classes though, which is awesome. I’m starting to be open about taking street jazz (I wasn’t before) ‘cos I think it’ll make me a better dancer. And anything that can make me better is wonderful in my book. Heh. There are many things I don’t know, or can’t do… and there is always, always room for improvement. :)

Like I’ve mentioned before, things in Blast feel very different to me now. There’s like way tooo much drama and politics and all that mambo-jambo going on. It mars the experience. I’m not directly involved, but I feel the atmosphere has changed. Plus, there are only a handful of people I’d consider myself close to, some that I can get along with, and a lot whom I don’t know. And that’s only gonna be exacerbated next semester, once most of my friends graduate.

(And you know this was coming…) I miss Kazi! :( I hear they’re putting together a new routine for the upcoming shows they’re doing, and I so wish I was there! Gaaaaaaaah. I miss performing. Exhilarating. Stressful. Fun. Ultimately rewarding.That’s why you work so hard- to put up a good performance. Blast is not even having a concert this semester, which really sucks, cos it was the one thing I was looking forward to.

I finally crumbled and bought something on Wednesday. Hahahahha. I really couldn’t resist, cos it was half-off (and hence only $14!). It’s a lovely long-sleeved shirt. I loooove it. I actually really wanna buy shoes too, but I couldn’t find a pair that caught my eye. I’ve also been lusting after this super-cropped black jacket at Mango. It is SO fabulous, and I covet it badly. Alas, it’s $75, which is steeeeep.

I need to wake up at the bloody crack of dawn tomorrow. Damnit. My biodiversity class is going to the zoo tomorrow as a field trip, and I have to be in school at the ungodly hour of 8am. Bloody effing hell. Given that it’s like 1.30am now, I’m gonna get barely 4 hours of sleep. Fun times.

Can I get a HELL YEAH for M5 & The Mayer winning Grammys?

I was hoping M5 would win Best New Artist, but I expected either Kanye West or Joss Stone to win. But, I was beyond psyched that they won. There was much squealing and fist-pumping-in-the-air. Heh.

And John! Winning Song of the Year! That is so so great.

I really enjoyed this year’s Grammys. Most of the performances were great. I really liked the opening sequence with BEP/Gwen & Eve/Los Lonely Boys/M5/Franz Ferdinand. That kicked all kinds of ass. Loved the Usher performance. Alicia Keys’ as well, with Jamie Foxx. The only performance that was kinda meehhhh to me was JLo and Mrac Anthony. There was kinda pointless to me, though Marc Anthony has a gorgeous voice.

Happy February 14th. LOL. If you’re reading this, chances are you’re a friend… and at the risk of sounding sappy, I treasure and appreciate your friendship especially since I’m quasi-unsociable. Heh.

Nope, no long diatribe from me about how overrated and commercialized this day is (It so is!)

One person wished me a Happy Valentine’s Day… and that was really nice and made me smile. Funny how that person is so far away from me, yet he took the time to email me. Very sweet. *grin* No prizes for guessing who it was. ;)

So, I’ve finally gotten off my ass and changed layouts. :) The screencaps are from Dawson’s Creek S3 episode called “Stolen Kisses” and I got them from here. And lyrics are from “Collide” by Howie Day, which is just so appropriate. Anyway. I like it and I’m in a Pacey/Joey sorta mood so, it’s all good. :) I’m just glad to be seeing something different instead of that layout that I had for like 4 months.

This week has been pretty good. 2 days off from school for Chinese New Year (which I spent doing absolutely nothing)… and now, it’s the weekend again. I woulda had almost a week off if it weren’t for my Ethics class which I had on Tuesday and Friday. Heh.

I’m really enjoying AI4 so far. I was pretty much apathetic last season, so it’s nice to kinda be sucked in again. I’m rooting for that blond guy, Anthony, who has such a lovely voice. Looking forward to the numbers dwindling so that we can really see who’s who.

I’m bored. I have a bunch of books to read, and of course reading for school, but I feel like actually getting up and doing stuff instead of just lying around. Hmmph.

And I have a craving for chocolate. And ice-cream.

This is me kicking myself in the ass for not going to Wilmy.

Goddamnit.

I was watching TRL today and it was the one with the cast of OTH. And ohholycrap, Chad? Is the Hottness. I mean, I know this (that he’s hot) but daaaaaamn. There’s just something about him. Hmmm. I’ve said this before, but it bears saying it again: Sophia Bush, you are one hella lucky woman! Seriously, I shoulda really really tried to go to Wilmy when I was that near. Bloody hell. Well, that’s another thing to put on my list of “Why I Should Go Back to NC”. Heh.

I can’t believe that OTH has grown to be such a big thing. S1 wasn’t exactly stellar… but I guess the fangirls were won over. (And damn, there seems to be a lot of fangirls!) It’s not a complete suckfest (I’m surprised I can say that about totally laughing out loud. Hahhaha) but there are definitely better shows on tv. There are only 2 reasons I still kinda follow it: 1) Chad and 2) James (cos I somehow have a soft spot for Nathan). Hahahahah. It’s the power of eye candy! It’s like watching a horrible accident sometimes; you know it’s ghastly and horrible and painful but you just can’t tear your eyes away cos you wanna find out if it can get any worse.

Anyway. I suddenly wanna have a Chad layout. Except that I already have another idea for a layout that I really wanna do too, which involves lyrics from Howie Day’s “Collide” (my song of the moment! The lyrics are so gorgeous!). Hmmmph. But months of not tinkering with Photoshop has totally made me rusty and graphic-making is a bitch.

These two days off for Chinese New Year is much-appreciated. I’m hoping to get some reading (of the scholarly type) done, but that may or may not happen. Especially since I have a shelf-full of other, more fun reading (of the mindless variety). I spent this weekened doing nothing but read, actually. And I felt like such a sloth. The days consisted me of laying on my bed and reading books consecutively. Oyyyy.

And the upside, I think the dance classes are a go. Woooo! I’m excited about that.

I’ve been listening to a certain “genre” (though I dunno if that’s the appropriate term for describe it) of music lately: the male singer/songwriter thingy. Heh. People like John Mayer, Jason Mraz, Gavin Degraw, Ryan Cabrera, Damien Rice, Marc Broussard, Howie Day. I seem to especially have a fondness for their depressing/sappy/emo songs. LOL. Not surprising, really. It’s good stuff though.

Oh, and I’ve been listening to Bsb. Hahahaha. Totally random, but Nance gave me a link to mp3s from the Night Out concert, and I’ve been hooked on them. Heh. I can’t wait for their new CD to come out. It needs to come out soon, damnit.

There are a few DVD sets that I wanna buy. Alias S1 & S2 (especially S2!). Gilmore Girls S1 (Triiissstaaan!). And, I just found out that S3 of Dawson’s Creek is out on DVD too! I waaaant. I might even want it more than GG S1. *gasp* Tristan vs. Pacey? Pacey would win yo. Especially S3!Pacey. OMG, I have so much love for S3!Pacey. Which is why I want that DVD set. Plus, I’ve only seen bits and pieces of episodes from that season (the Pacey/Joey parts, that is. Heh) and I want to see the whole thing. Especially Dawson’s jealous hissy fits, which will be extra fun to watch knowing that the series ended with Pacey/Joey. Bwahahahahah. Hmm, where’s my CDs with the series finale? I feel like watching that again. Heh heh.

Whywhywhy are the DVD sets so expensive? Sigh.

Wow. This has been a totally random post. :)

P/S: Photos from the party thingamabob are up at my fotopage.

I love my cultural anthropology class. It’s so much fun and so interesting )and it makes me think about my experience on exchange). I had to do “research” for my first paper today: I spent about 40 minutes observing interactions between people in elevators. It sounds kinda kooky (and it is!) but it was fun too. I felt a little weird and silly at times… but still, fun. Heh.

School’s off to a pretty good start. I’ve been keeping up with my readings (for the most part). I haven’t yet skipped a class (except for that one tutorial, that I totally forgot about!). And things on the whole seem to be quite all right. So far, so good. We’ll see how I feel once the work really starts to pile up.

Due to my stupidity, I’m having a minor crisis with my laptop. Hmmmph. I’m starting to think that my best bet would be to reformat the hard drive. But first! I need to back-up all my important stuff. And damn, I have a lot of stuff that I’d wanna keep. I’m asking around to see if there’s any solution to my problem… and if there isn’t, then (as Meichan put it) I should “brainwash” it. Hahahaha. Anyway, I’m surprised that I haven’t had major problems with Tristan thus far. The only other problem I had with it was when I couldn’t play audio and had to send it for servicing. But that was a pretty minor issue. So I’ve been pretty lucky actually.

The other (stupid) thing is that I can’t find my wireless PC card! Aaargh. It’s bugging me like hell. I don’t even know if I left it behind in NC, but I seriously doubt it. My memory is a complete blank when I try to recall where I might’ve put it. But, I can’t find it anywhere in the vicinity of my desk. Damnit.

So, yeah. Nothing much has been going on (as you could probably tell from the lack of blogging). School, dance, enjoying my own company. That’s about it. Sounds pretty sad when I put it that way… but I guess I’ve fallen back into my old patterns of living. Gaaaah. Oh well. My desire to take dance classes might pan out, which is good. And I still do want to learn Spanish.

Why can’t money just grow on trees?

More and more, it feels like the time I spent in NC is slipping away. I’ve been home about a month now, but familiarity has taken over so strongly that it really almost feels like I was never there. I haven’t chatted to my friends there in a while, so maybe that has added to the distance I’ve feeling from my experience. The time difference makes communication difficult sometimes, and I haven’t been on AIM much either.

On a totally random note, I like my hair. LOL. For a while, I’ve been considering colouring it…. but I realize that I’ve come to like my natural colour. Heh. Plus, I hate that growing-out phase after you colour it. Blaaaah. And for some reason, I realize that I also like my hair straight-ish. I mean, I went through a phase when I hated my hair straight and hence paid a crapload of money for a ceramic perm. But now… I dunno, I like how low-maintenance it is (and it manages to look pretty decent) and how I can style it however I want, whenever I want. I might think about actually straightening it…

Wow, that was a pretty pointless paragraph.

And now… off to watch tv. God bless Starworld and Manhunt. Bring on the ogling of yummy male models! Hehehehe.