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Seriously (monkey!….. Okay, that’s a sign I’m spending too much time lurking at the TWoP forums), I am chugging the Everclear. Can’t. Stop. Listening to JD. My JD CD is getting a workout yo. Spending too much time (daily!) lurking at the forums. Watching videos of his performances. Smiling whenever I go to the INXS website. Oh, I need help.

And someone linked to this article. And JD saying “I just want to put on my �kasut� and go for a �jalan�.”? Oh man, I bet Malay words coming from him sound hot. Heheheheh. And his godparents are Malay and come from Penang? Awesome! And I remember him mentioning Our Island: Singapore in one of his print interviews, so Boyfriend knows we exist. Hahahah. Hey man, it’s a good sign.

I was listening to some INXS songs today, and I started wondering how JD would sound on some of them. I need to hear him sing “Need You Tonight”. Aaaaah. I hope INXS (with their “shiny bumper bar!”) brings their concert here next year. (And you know that the moment I hear a concert date, I’ll be that much closer to shelling out the moolah for that damned expensive fanclub membership.) So that I can a) stalk meet my new rock star boyfriend; b) hear my boyfriend sing live and in person and looking all sexy; c) hear the brand! new! INXS! singing the classic INXS songs; d) die from screaming/not breathing/too much excitement when I see the JD-hip-swivel; e) see if my inexplicable opinion that Jon Farriss is kinda cute has basis in reality or if my eyesight/judgement has been impaired by over-imbibing the Everclear; f) ALL OF THE FREAKIN’ ABOVE!.

JD is added to the (short!) list of Jasons I love: Jason Mraz, Jason Dohring and the “Jason” from Starbucks (HAHAHAHHA!). I’ve decided that when/if I buy a spankin’ new iPod (which, I swear, seems more likely as the days go by), I’m gonna name him after JD. Hehehe.

And from one Jason to another… Veronica Mars S2 premiere is TOMORRROOWWWWWW! *does the pogo!* Logaaaaaaan! Weeevilll! Veronicaaaaaa! Daddy Maaaars! Wallaaaace! Mystery! Intrigue! Romanceeeeee! Bring it on baby!

Watching America’s Next Top Model on Monday night, I couldn’t believe that none of them knew what “aloof” means. WTF? I might have understood not knowing how to pronounce “magenta” or “Hermes” cos pronunciation can be tough sometimes. But dang, these girls really aren’t doing anything to dispel that stupid-model stereotype. Sheeesh.

Oh, and today was the start of TAR Family Edition. Honestly, TAR is the one show I’d die to be on. How much fun would that be? I was talking to my mom and saying our family would squabble like crazy if we were on. I know how it’s like sometimes when we’re on vacation and “it ain’t pretty”. Hahaha. My dad, bro and I can have very short fuses sometimes and our patience can run low (even though I try) so I know it wouldn’t take much for us to bite each others’ heads off. All that navigation can be good or bad; we’re used to navigating on our own but there have been some arguments whenever someone gets directions wrong. Heh. I would probably be quite scarily competitive. Hahahha. And I know I’d get frustrated if my mom and/or dad couldn’t keep up in the physical challenges. On the upside, all our travel experience would be an advantage and I know my bro and I would probably do anything. So, I dunno: if my family were on TAR, we’d either win it all or crash and burn. LOL.

When I came home today and saw that Logan was being reformatted, I had a WTF moment. As in, what the fuck happened? Logan is barely 2 months old and he hasn’t shown any signs of collapse whatsoever and given that he’s pretty much brand new, I didn’t foresee any problems in the near future. I asked my dad and didn’t get a straight answer so I still don’t know what happened. (My dad seems to have this random need to reformat at times, which is fine but please he needs to warn me first. Gaaaaaah.) All I know is that I lost my files, my media, my bookmarks. My files & my media can replaced; I can’t think of anything of dire importance that was lost, thank goodness. As for my bookmarks, that’s a sore point for me because a lot of them were resources for school (papers) and there were hard enough to find. And I don’t know if I have a copy of those references. Ah damnit. It’s gonna suck trying to hunt down those things again. Grrrrrrr.

Lesson: Always, always keep multiple copies of important stuff. Technology never fails to fail you.

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Anyway. “Quidam” was pretty awesome. Man, the things they did! Quite amazing. It’s such an entertaining show; the audience participation bits were hilarious as hell (though I sympathized with the unfortunate people who were picked out), the music was haunting and, of course, the (circus) acts were quite mesmerizing. Th amount of dedication and work that goes into doing those things perfectly just blows my mind. So yeah, I definitely had a good time. (And dang, there were some good-looking guys in the audience… hehehe.)

After that, my mom dragged me to this party that her friend was having. I dunno why I always allow myself to be dragged to these things (admittedly, sometimes I go cos of boredom but there are times when I let myself get talked into it) when I know that for the most part I’ll feel out of place. I’d also like to state that it’s a little weird to see my mom with her friends… cos like, she’s my mom, y’know? Granted, I have a pretty good relationship with her but still. And that party was a little crazy. (When it is ever not crazy when there’s alcohol involved? Hahahah.)

The people at the party were my mom’s colleagues, and for a bunch of older people, it was one crazy party. And there was a lot of drama (which I found amusing as hell, really): crying, throwing up, a shoe in the pool and someone jumping in to get it. There was karaoke, food, and a lot of alcohol. I smiled through all the comments about how tall I am, how I can’t be the daughter cos my mom doesn’t look her age blahblahblah whatevercakes. All you gotta do is smile and nod yo. I was the quiet bystander, which suited me just fine. I did learn, however, that I really don’t like wine. Argh. No. No wine for me. I’m more of a hard liquor kinda girl. Hahahaha. (I was about to type “Bring on the Everclear!” in ode to JD. Hahahah.) I was like the only 100% sober person there. Hahahaha. We ended up being the last people to leave, though I don’t know how that happened. Weird that. (Maybe cos a lot of people left before a) they were wasted or b) they were helping the drunk people get home. Heh.)

So. The mid-term blues has struck. I’m in no mood for school or doing school-related stuff. And it’s horrid timing cos this is pretty much the busiest time of the sem. Gaaaaah. I need to get myself together and get things done!

Oooookay. The JD-love has grown deep deep roots and is growing like a freakin’ weed. I already have a CD full of JD songs (Gah, I wish Juju was alive… *sniff*) which I listened to all day today. On the bus, at home. All the damn time. I think my mom is sick of hearing him (though she too is a fan, she’s more of a Mig fan. Support for a fellow Filipino and all that). Heheheh. I DON’T CARE! I really really want to hear the studio version of “Pretty Vegas”! Gaaaaah.

Anyway. I’m this close -> <- to making a JD layout. If only there are more high-res pics of him. All the ones I've seen are too itty bitty for a layout. Sigh. JD must do a photoshoot soon so that I can have pretty pics for a layout. LOL. I'm also that close to making a DVD of JD videos from the show. Hehehehe.

I'm obsessed. Officially, that is. JD has moved up the Hot-Men-I'd-Do-Without-Having-To-Even-Think-About-It List. Hahahahha. Next thing you know I'll be joining the INXS fanclub (Eeeeek!) and praying for INXS to play here so that I can see my new rock star boyfriend in action and die from the Hottness. Heh. Luckily I'm not that far gone. But if I hear that INXS is gonna swing by, you damn well can be sure that I'll be stalking JD at the concert. Oz is really not that far away, and it’s supposed to be a “world tour”. Hopefully they won’t pull that bloody irritating Japan-is-Asia crap. LOL.

Oh oh, someone posted a link to where the studio PV is at. Le sigh. Looooove. Boyfriend sounds loooovely. Now, if only I can figure out how to save it. Heheheh. And I’m hoping that someone will put up the video of the band on Ellen’s show. Cos I need my JD fix. Hee.

Oh man, I haven’t been this fangirly over someone is a looooong time. I’m mainlining the Everclear yo. Fun times. Heh. (Someone’s selling t-shirts that says something about mainlining Everclear- wonder what kind of reactions I’d get if I had that and wore it around? Hahahah.)

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It’s the weekend! And I’m watching “Quidam” tomorrow! That should be awesome; I’ve always wanted to watch a Cirque Du Soleil show. Bring on tha acrobatics and circus fun!

I was feeling lazy about going to dance today. It’s the break afterall, and the thought of dragging myself alllll the freakin’ way to school was… MEH.

Turns out that I’m glad I went. It was fun. After the intensity of the last few weeks, it was good to dance just for fun. To just learn it and dance it and not have to worry about getting it 100% right. And once you get into it, the fatigue just sorta drains away. Heh. I really liked what we learnt today and hopefully we’ll continue with it next week. It had a “dance hall” vibe to it, which was awesome to do. Hehehe. Shake that ass!

I’m still PSYCHED that JD is the new lead singer of INXS! Wooooooo! (Am listening to my JD playlist now. Hehehe.)

In other (bad) news, the break is pretty much over. And while I did make a small dent in the amount of work I need to do, there’s a lot left over. Gaaaaaah. Oh well, I’m gonna live in denial for another day. ;)

ETA: Because it makes me a happy fangirl-

Warning: Yes, excessive fangirl-ing again. And yes, for the same reason. [Spoilers for the finale, so don’t read if you don’t wanna know who’s the new lead singer of INXS!]

The INXS official site says it all. *grin*

I actually got up at 9.30am to watch the live telecast of the finale. That’s devotion yo. Hahahah. A damn good thing I did!

I was incredibly nervous throughout the show. There were a lot of speculation going on online about who’d be ‘right for the band’. I still believed (especially after “Pretty Vegas”) that JD was it, but I could see the merits of Marty and Mig so anything could happen.

But JD was on tonight! [Aside: Boyfriend looked hot too! I was like, “Daaaaamn.”] I loved him on “You Can’t Always Get What You Want”. Loved the acapella beginning and then the guitar kicked in and then the rest of the band, and it was just awesome.

I nearly died during the elimination bit: “Not JD, not JD, pleaaaaase, not JD”. I didn’t care who went as long as it wasn’t JD. Heh. I had a feeling it’d be Marty and JD duking it out, and that was the way it went.

During Marty’s “Don’t Change”, his lack of interaction with INXS was really striking. And then compare that to JD’s “What You Need”, and I was almost sure that JD had it in the bag.

Almost had a heart attack while waiting for INXS’s decision. I was fervently hoping it was JD, but you never know (I wondered if his asshat behaviour in the beginning would sway the decision). And reality tv has crushed my heart so many times so I didn’t wanna get my hopes up. Poor boyfriend looked so nervous and he looked like he would break down if they picked Marty.

Loved his reaction when Tim said he was ‘right for the band’. Boyfriend was clearly so shocked and overwhelmed. Awwww. I was screaming by my lonesome in my living room (My mom told me she heard me and realized that I was watching the show. Haha.) and was just excited beyond belief. Hell yeah baby! And I got freakin’ weepy when I saw that he was so happy that he was weepy. Awwww. How much do I love JD?

It was uber cool to see the INXS sign at the back of the stage when they sang their new song. I bet JD can’t wrap his mind around the fact that he is now a member of INXS. Heh. Awesomeness.

So yeah, I’m a very happy fangirl. I can’t wait for the release of “Pretty Vegas” and I’m probably gonna check out the new INXS album when it’s released to support my boy. Hee.

The funny thing about performance night is that it goes by in a snap. During rehearsal/practice, you’re conscious of everything, every move, every single minute of the song. But when the lights are shining on you, the crowd is hype (actually, just the knowledge that there is a crowd is enough), you’re pumped up and it’s a whole ‘nother level. And you’re smiling, feeling the music and the moves and next thing you know, you’re done. It’s funny.

So, DR was good. I felt that the first night was better cos the crowd was a lot more vocal/supportive and you feed off that energy. Tonight was more quiet, but we still put up a good performance, I thought. And our opening performance at Suntec was awesome, in terms of the energy. Sure, the stage was small and there were some boo-boos, but the crowd got us excited so that made up for it. No major screw-ups from me, which is always good. Heh. There was one or two little things that were off (mainly tonight) but nothing totally obvious. Heh.

I gotta say A BIG THANK YOU to the people who shelled out moolah to (literally) watch me shake my ass. Hahahaa. I really appreciate it and I hope you enjoyed the show! The ’skanky’ comments were warranted this time around, which I acknowledge. LOL. But I guess skanky is good? Since that’s the whole point of my section anyway. Our section is actually referred to as “dance hall” but it’s been mutated into “dance whores”. Hahahahaha. So we were trying to channel the sexy, and hopefully we were successful. Heh. (I’m sure the skimpy outfits helped!)

I had a good time dancing. It was only 3 weeks of prep anyhow, although some of was intense. It’s all good though, cos by this week, most of the choreograpy was muscle-memory and I didn’t really have to panick about freezing up and forgetting stuff. Hahaha. The past few nights were a lot of fun, and it’s always good to hang out with the dance peeps. Too much laughter and amusement all around. All the jokes and the stupid moments and the phototaking. Hahahah.

Speaking of photos, a lot of them are very kooky (at least I think I look kooky in them, hahah). Trying to be “in character” and all, and hence the dubious poses/photos/looks. Hahahahaha. Oh dang. A few ‘normal’ pics here and there, thank goodness. And me in my skimpy-ass outfit. Oyyyyy. (I think on the whole, I prefer the previous set of pics from Pappadum).

Seeing the Ensemble piece makes me wish I could do jazz. *sigh* At some point, I do want to learn but I don’t think I can commit to it now. Jazz intro lessons, here I am (some time in the future!). First thing I need to do is to change my defeatist attitude about jazz ‘cos I feel like an ungraceful idiot everytime I attempt jazz. hahaha. Someday, someday. For now, I’m happy enough doing hip-hop (and there’s a lot of things in hip-hop that I’m not good at yet too!). Being a dancer is such an uphill battle, but I enjoy it. Heh.

So, the first half of the semester has been filled with dance. Back to normal student life. I’m glad this coming few days is the mid-term break, and hopefully that means I can catch up on school stuff I’ve been slacking on (so! many! things!). And dance-related stress can go bye-bye.

Tired. Sleep. Tomorrow is gonna be a lazy day.

There are many things I should be doing. Tomorrow (the early part at least) is gonna be a crappy day. It’s gonna be a long-ass day. Classes from 9am-3pm and then the performance in the evening. I’m excited about DR, but the stuff before that is gonna kick my ass.

A mock-exam to be handed in tomorrow (3 mini-essays), which I haven’t done. I’m probably gonna go into both classes without having done any of the reading. I have a full-dress rehearsal tonight that will end late. And I’m most likely gonna be functioning on little sleep. Caffeine, thou art my saviour.

Of course, I could get started on some of the stuff I need to do, but instead I’m here blogging. One particular thing has been pissing me off lately (something that I’ve mentioned a few times here, I think) and I just wanna vent.

Yesterday, I had a late lunch with Ali. And we got to talking and the subject of boys and relationships came up.

Digression: She asked me what kind of guys attract me and I didn’t really know the answer to that. Sure, I’ve always sorta gravitated towards good-looking guys (I mean, who doesn’t?). But while I have an idea of the kind of guy I’m attracted to, describing it to someone is hard. Mainly, because it takes a type of chemistry, connection, a certain je ne sais quoi that draws me to certain people. That’s what happened with YKW, I think. He isn’t the most good-looking guy, though I think he’s cute in his own geeky-gawky-I’m-so-hot-when-I’m-dancing way. Heh. I can’t put into words exactly what I find so attractive in him and when I do try to describe it, it falls short of what I’m thinking/feeling. There was just something there. *shrug*

At any rate, she (Ali) gave a suggestion as to what that something is: charisma. And me thinking in general about the guys I find attractive- I think that’s true. Maybe not the whole reason, but definitely a part of it.

So that was sort of a mini-epiphany. Heh. [/end digression]

Anyway, another thing that came up in our conversation is that sudden (bloody fuckin’ irritating) trend of people telling me they wanna introduce me to someone (ie. setting me up with some dude). Hani has always been that way, but I’m used to it coming from her. I usually just laugh it off. Heh. It’s one thing when it comes from friends, cos that in some ways, they may have a better idea of the kind of guy I’d like. But when it comes from my mom (and it did come, last night, which seriously set me off), it feels like being prodded into something. I really really dislike it.

One of these days, I might just blow up at someone. I am heartily sick of it. I am not fuckin’ miserable. I am not fuckin’ pining for a boyfriend. (Pining for a certain someone- maybe. Hahahahha. That’s a whole ‘nother matter.) I’m single, and I’m happy about it. I wish people would leave me the hell alone. If I want a boyfriend, I’ll get one damnit. It’s no one’s business but mine.

It was amusing the first few times people asked me why I don’t have a boyfriend. How the fuck does one answer that question anyway? There’s no right answer. But now those inquiries seem to have developed into something else, and I’m just like, “WTF?”. There’s a sort of implicit judgement (if such things are coming from family or older ‘well-meaning’ people) that being with someone and going down that path towards marriage (in the long-run of course) is the thing to do. This is where social/familial pressures come in, and it’s irritating.

I’m just gonna try and brush this whole thing off. Because thinking about it is just gonna piss me off.

Crap. I need to leave for dance rehearsal. Tomorrow’s the show! :)

Warning: Fangirl-ing ahead. It’ll all be incomprehensible unless you too watch Rock Star: INXS. Heh.

I am a JD fangirl. I know he’s the “villain” that everyone loves to hate, but I adoreeeee him to bits. I can’t stop listening to “Pretty Vegas” and bloody singing along. It’s infectious yo. Lovelovelove. And I also love him singing “Mystify”. That song is such a great song to begin with, and he just sounds fabulous singing it. I love his voice; there’s just a tone to it that I really like.

And I think he’s hot. Like OMG-sex-on-a-stick HOT. I dunno what it is exactly but I find his onstage presence very charismatic and compelling and I’m riveted. Sure he has his foot-in-the-mouth moments, but I can overlook that cos I love watching him perform. Of course, it might just be Virgo-cosmic-bro-love, cos he too is a Virgo and his birthday is just a day after mine! And the other funny coincidink is that his fans at TWoP are referred to as Everclear drinkers- and I had that episode with (too much) Everclear last year. Hahahhahaa.

And he was so good last week. That was a good time to be a JD fan; I totally squealed like the fangirl I am when he got the encore. “Pretty Vegas” is playing on loop in my head. Heh. And if Juju was alive, I know that I’d probably be listening to JD mp3s a lot. Heheheheh.

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Last night was kinda frantic. I was scheduled to have a class presentation today, and given my crazy schedule (dancedancedance), I didn’t start on it til Sunday evening. And then last night, while I was putting together my presentation, I got distracted. That’s what happens when you’re signed on AIM when you’re supposed to be working. Heh. But yeah, I talked to a few people. Talked to some Kazi peeps; they had tryouts last week and they’re got their new team together. Talked to Mike, and he was telling me about the beach trip and stuff. It was fun, and made the night a little less tedious.

But then, of course, the prof took waaaay too long on his lecture today and we didn’t time for my set of presentations. Gaaaaah. All that craziness for nothing. Sigh. On the upside, that means I don’t have to worry about it too much when the time comes.

On the dance front, the next few days will be busy with night rehearsals. Fun times. [/sarcasm] Hopefully they’ll end early enough so that I can catch public transportation home; paying the cab fares will burn a freakin’ hole in my wallet.

The dance’s going well. My energy level is pretty much back to normal after the headache stuff that had me feeling blaaah most of last week. And we got our costume- which is bloody effing skimpy. I don’t necessarily have a problem with that- but when you’re wearing a tiny skirt and a tiny top while doing those dance moves, woooooaaaaaaah. Full effect. I dunno if that’s a good thing or a bad thing. Hahahahaha.

I’m feeling good today, thank goodness. (A little hungry, but good.) Maybe it was my happy thoughts; I was listening to these songs from a particular playlist (that I burned into a CD now that Juju is dead), and they just reminded me of good things. Hee. Plus, it was nice to reminisce at the exchange booth today. There was video of Carolina (OMG, I WANT TO GO BACK LIKE NOOOOOOOW!) and a bunch of peeps who’d gone to Carolina on exchange. So, that was nice. I didn’t actually do anything (hahah) but just showing up in a good thing I guess. Heh.

I REALLY REALLY WANT TO GO BACK TO CAROLINA.. Things are going on there that I wish I was there for: Kazi tryouts this Friday (which totally reminds me of when I tried out and how bloody nervous I was. Hahahah), they’re having a mixer on Saturday (Oh man, don’t get me started on the weirdness of the mixer last year… oy *facepalm*), and ASA is having their beach trip this weekend (and we all know what happened on the beach trip… aka too much Everclear. LOL.). Everything’s so reminiscent of last year, and I wish I was there to experience it all (again). I miss everyone, I miss everything. Waaaaaaaaaaaaah.

Anyways. Headache has gone bye-bye, which is good. I have things to do for school, which is not so good. I met with one of my profs to talk about my project (I’m doing Fight Club, which is awesome ‘cos I love the movie/book!), so I can get started on that soon enough. Foremost on my list right now is my Monday presentation- aaaaaaargh. I need to start. ASAP.

So yeah, it’s a good day.

Dancedancedance. Gah.

I’m hungry. I need food.

Tomorrow, I hope to awake early enough to drop by McD before class. That may or may not happen. Hehehehehe.

I felt like crap yesterday. I don’t know what it was, but I came home Monday night with the beginnings of a headache. Maybe it was cos I hadn’t eaten anything but a sandwich all day. I dunno. But I fell into bed after having dinner; had a restless, unsatisfying sleep but I didn’t get up til after noon the next day.

That’s when I felt like crap. It was that feeling where you don’t feel right but you don’t really know the reason. I didn’t have any appetite and after watching some tv, I fell back into bed cos my head started pounding like crazy. I was supposed to go out to scout for stuff to wear for the upcoming performance but I didn’t feel up to it, so I bailed.

So I pretty much spent all Tuesday lying in bed, which sucked. It wasn’t restful; it was more like, ‘fucking hell-why won’t this headache go away?’. The upside was that I managed to finish reading HBP (which I wanna talk about once I feel much more coherent).

I skipped out on class and dance today; still didn’t feel 100% and I didn’t wanna endure all that and feel like shit all day. So I took a day off. Heh. Took more Panadol (Eeek), slept some more. Tried to do some reading for Friday. And I realize I have a presentation on Monday that I need to start preparing for! Oh, damnit all.

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I feel better now though my head still feel heavy. Gonna pop some more Panadol before I go to bed. Int’l Exchange Day is tomorrow and I signed up to help out. Hopefully it’ll be fun (although when is it ever not fun to talk about Carolina? Heh.). I hate not feeling 100%. Sucks sucks sucks. Especially when there are things that I need to do!

In other news, Logan (my computer) has been pimped outttttt. Heheheh. My dad bought new speakers (and a subwoofer!). It’s awesome, esp. when I play hip-hop music real loud. Hahahaha. You can feel the thumping bass yo. And I can use the TV tuner and watch tv on Logan and record tv shows! Oh, the joy. The love for Logan overfloweth.

Is there such a thing as too much sleep? I think not.

It’s been a loooong day. Fridays are my 6-hours-of-class-day; it’s not too bad most of the time but the past 2 weeks it’s been a bit of a challenge to stay a) wake and b) coherent. Heh. Today was okay, but I had like a crapload of caffeine to help me through. Hahahha.

Class ended at 3pm, but I had dance at 8.30pm. I considered going home first, but I knew that that would make me feel more tired/sleepy. Cos once you’re home, it’s hard to drag yourself out of the house, especially if you wanna sleep! So I hung around at school. Had a late lunch at McD (dude, I need to stop eating there!), went online for a while and did some productive things. Heh.

As I was about to leave school, I bumped into Jacky. He was going to Bugis, and I accompanied him. I haven’t had the chance to talk to him much before so it was cool getting to know him a little. He’s a nice guy and conversation didn’t falter, which was nice.

Arrived at the dance studio about 15-20 minutes early which gave me time to recap the moves and stretch and stuff. I was feeling kinda antsy about it; I can remember the choreography but it’s not internalized yet and I don’t feel good/confident about it yet so, I knew that was a possible recipe for disaster. I have this tendency to be self-conscious about myself sometimes, especially when people are just standing around watching. It’s funny cos I have no problem with performing but dancing it in a small room with spectators can be stressful.

Anyway. We ran through what we had first. It was cool cos I haven’t seen the other bits before. I have to say: Pat is a freakin’ genius. He is v. v. good at what he does. There are 5 different sections in the item, each a different type of hip-hop and one’s a jazz piece too. Despite the fact that we still need to work on it, I thought it looked good (esp. considering that we all just learnt our sections this week!).

And then, came the stress. We have to learn stuff for the ‘finale’ where we all come together. On hindsight, it wasn’t that much but he taught it real quick.

And we’re done with choreography. In an effing week. Maaaaan. There’s a full-run rehearsal tomorrow; we have all of next week to get everything right and the week after that will be technical rehearsals and stuff leading up to the show. Quickquickquick.

So, every free minute in the next 2 weeks will be spent obssessing over the choreography and praying that I get it right and get it looking the way it freakin’ should. I need to be feel more comfortable with it and just let loose without having to think about it. Gaaaaaah. Stressstressstress. Maybe I need to not overthink it and do.

We have a crapload of tickets available for the show, so if anyone wants to come (GO GO GO!), holllaaaaa! :)

Okay, time to get some sleep. I’m a tired and achy girl.