and i u n f o l d

I’ve been in a crummy mood the past few days. And when I’m in a crummy mood, I stay holed up in my room and disdain contact with people. When people do talk to/bother me, I get irritated and cranky. Basically, it’s ain’t pretty. (Heh.)

In times like this, I need my Happy Crack. In the past, Happy Crack has consisted of Sparkly Dance Boys, Justin (Timberlake), Tristan (DuGrey from Gilmore Girls), watching Sark (Alias) literally kick ass, among other things. (Hey, if I listed them all… well, it’s a long list.)

Now, it’s Logan (Echolls from Veronica Mars) and JD/INXS. Heh.

I watched VM last night. I love that show… but seriously, Duncan Donut? BORES THE CRAP OUT OF ME. He’s even more boring than the original Yawn (aka Michael Vaughn on Alias… RIP dude. *evil laugh*), and that’s saying something. And because he’s the most boring character ever, Veronica is starting to bore me. That makes me sad ‘cos Veronica is an awesome character.

Anyway. We got one tiny Logan scene. But it was a great Logan scene (like all other Logan scenes, really. Heh.), so I was still a happy camper. Jason Dohring is such an amazing actor; he brings so much to Logan.

So, that was Happy Crack Dose #1.

Then I came home after a long, crappy day, logged on to the forum at RockBand.com and found that the Evercleareans were in a tizzy cos of the PV video. Heh. It was funny. I had trouble with vh1.com (”Buffering”- I have NO patience for it!) but someone put the video up for download and 15 minutes later, I am a happy fangirl. (If anyone wants to see it, here’s the link.)

[Let the incoherent rambling begin]

Okay, so I first became excited about the video when INXS.com had the tiny pic of nekkid!JD. Hot damn! The last time I got excited about a semi-nekkid!anyone was probably those Justin photos in Arena Homme. I shelled out $18 for that damn magazine… craziness.

Anyway. First, I have to say this: PV IS A KICK-ASS SONG. God knows how many thousand times I’ve listened to it every since JD first sung it. It never gets old. Something about it just sticks in your head. And JD just sounds fabulous singing it; there’s something different every time he sings it (I have- like what?- 8 versions of it, incl. the studio version and baby!PV from the song-writing clinic). And I love each one for different reasons.

Back to the video:

[shallow] OMG, JD is smokin’ HOT yo! It wasn’t even the nekkidness that got me. (Although, daaaamn, boyfriend has a yummy body. Mmmm.) It was everything else. The mic toss at the end. The throwing of the mic stand. The cute smile. The sparkly megaphone (Hee!). The singing/frolicking in the desert. The singing in the hanger. And his hair is growing out! Boy knows how to work the camera too. It’s alllll good baby. [/shallow]

I love the colors in the video. A lot like the “Incomplete” video - with the sunlight, the bright sky. The dusty long road. The cruising in the car. Sand sifting through JD’s hands. I wouldn’t be surprised if this was the same desert area that Backstreet used. Heh. And the quick shots of a rising/setting sun and the desert- it looked good. Mad props to the director, Scott Duncan!

As for the rest of the guys: they looked good. Everyone looks like they’re having fun and I love the rapport they have with JD. They look so tight together and so right roit. This is the beginning of good things for them. :) (And, Jon? I think he’s hot. Heh. Drummers! *swoon*)

The effects of Happy Crack is wearing off. Need sleep.

The little things that make me happy… hehehe.

First, I’d like to introduce you to my brand-spankin-new iPod! It’s a 4th Gen, 20GB color iPod… and I named him JD. Heh. (Though for clarity’s sake, he’ll be referred to as JD!pod whenever I mention him here. Not to be confused with my future husband the real JD. LOL.)
So, I spent the last 2 hours or so loading all my music on JD!pod. Yaaaaay! I’m a happy girl.

Yes, I’m aware that the 5th Gen video iPods are now available. I was a bit upset when I found out, cos I didn’t expect them to be out so soon… but after thinking about it, I don’t really need video capabilities on my iPod. The only thing that hurts is that I’d want 30gigs! Oh well. I love my JD!pod anyhow. He’s purtyyy. And after 2 months of being Pod-less, it’s good to have one. Hehehe.

Of course, since technology and I can’t get along sometimes, Logan!puter is acting up. Grrrr. My iTunes on Logan is screwy. I think that after my RS:INXS season download is done (half-way there baby!), I’ll get my dad to reformat. Hmm… I think poor Logan is overloaded with crap. Hahahha. *pats Logan!puter*

The other thing that makes me happy is that my dad bought a webcam. Not that I’m gonna use it much cos the lighting in my room is baaaaad. LOL. And I usually look sloppy as hell when I’m lounging at home. Haha.

But, the thing that really really made me smile…

YKW and I talked last night on MSN. Since I’m not often on AIM, I asked him if he was on MSN, and voila! It really was nice to talk to him again. :) And we actually talked about the possibility of meeting when he’s in Japan: the two obvious choices are either he comes here or I go to Japan. We were sorta talking about what might be the best thing to do, but we didn’t settle on anything yet. Things will probably be more concrete once the exchange is confirmed on his end.

A lot of it is up to him; I’d love to have him here, of course (oh, words cannot describe how excited I’d be), but the option of me going to Tokyo is open as well. So, I dunno. I guess we’ll see how it goes. We’ll probably talk some more about it. I think it’ll def happen, it’s just a matter of who goes where. Heh. That’s something I can look forward to next year! Hee.

Sooo…. anyone interested in maybe going to Tokyo next summer? Heheheheh. ;)

:)

YKW still makes my heart go pitter-patter.

I emailed him today, just to say hi (haven’t spoken to him in ages), tell him how much I loved their dance perf and to send him the link to the DR vids, cos I thought he might like to watch them. (Dance has always been a strong link between us.) And I just got a reply from him… and (you guessed it!) there’s a big ol’ giddy smile on my face right now.

It was a pretty “normal” email… but with him, nothing is really just normal, is it? Haha. Anyway, he did mention that he applied to go to Japan (and he finds out Monday! *crosses fingers for him*) and that if he’s there, it’d be awesome if we could somehow meet up. (It is unneccessary for me to go on and on and on about how absolutely great that’d be.) I dunno exactly what it is about the email, but I get good vibes from it. Heheheh. (That sound so silly!) Just certain things that tell me that I haven’t totally gone off his radar. Heh. And darnit, I miss him.

(Yes, I realize that a few days ago I was whining about how I wish I didn’t feel anything for him anymore. Well, I never claimed to be rational when it comes to him. LOL.)

How nice is it to go to sleep with a smile on your face? ;)

So, finally, I saw the DR video. The thing that irritates me is the TRL-style camera views and editing. I mean, seriously, it bugs. I just want a full-on front view of the stage so that I can see how it looked like from the audience view-point. Instead, the editing gave us different camera angles which I don’t care about. Grrrrrrrr. I suppose the fancy editing looked nice, but as a dancer, I hate it. You can’t really see the formations (formation changes), the dance moves, and just how it all really looked like. But I think we might have a video of our dress rehearsal too which will have a front-on view.

Well, whatever. I think the performance looked good. Of course, something is lost when you translate something into video and I think (and I hope) that it looked better in real-life. My item wasn’t that bad, though from what little of me I saw, I could’ve done better. But darn, our outfits were skaaaaanky! And it’s just a little amusing to watch myself. Hahaha. And it turns out that the finale bit looked really nice, esp. during our last formation when we looked really in sync. (How much do I love “Lose Control”? A lotttttt. It’s such a kick-ass song!) The funny thing is that the video is from the first night and so the crowd was really rowdy. Heh.

Now all I want is to see the video of our other performance!

Things I’ve learnt/realized in the last week (or so):

1) Proscrastinaton is the root of all evil. (Or is evil the root of all procrastination? Hahhaha.)
2) I am a girly girl. (Good? Bad? I dunno.)
3) If you want to stop traffic, wear a wedding gown and prance around in public.
4) Some small tiny part of me might just be an attenton whore. (Hahahhaa!)

So these last few days marked my foray into modelling. I like/enjoy it a lot more than I expected, which is… good, I guess. Heh. I disliked taking photos and looking at myself when I was a teenager- awkward teenage years and all that. (And damn, it really was awkward!) And then around the time I was 17-18, I started to be really become comfortable with myself…. and for some reason, I could bear to look at photos of myself. LOL. And now, I think there are some times when I do look good in photos. Evolution, baby. Heheheh.

Anyway, I digress. I was always so ambivalent about modelling for various reasons but I’m definitely finding it a lot more fun than I thought. Which is cool.

My first job was a little meh to me. I was (and felt) pretty much like a prop for the new product that this company is introducing. It wasn’t too difficult to anything. But b’cos the focus was on the product, I felt like cattel. Which kinda sucked at times. And I was in a Chinese-speaking environment… so while I can understand some Chinese, most of the time I felt so out of the loop.

On the upside, the hair/make-up lady was really nice and a great help. She was encouraging and sorta guided me in some things, which was good. However, I felt bad at times; I get fidgety/restless after having to hold a pose and I’d move around and the poor lady has to come and arrange my hair every time I moved. The photog was pretty nice too; sure he got my name wrong a few times but he too was quite encouraging and directed me to do what I needed to do. (And I had the impression that he’s quite successful and prolific, so it was cool that I got to work with him.)

Only a few of the pics had me facing front-on, and I’m hoping that one won’t make the cut. Co I don’t like it, and something looks off to me. Oh well. At any rate, I doubt (I praaaaay) that no one or few people realize that it’s me. Hahahahah.

My second job was a helluva lot more fun. I got the assignment on very short notice but decided to take it on (and skip classes! Gaaaah. I kinda felt bad about that….) cos I thought it’d be interesting. And it was- fun and interesting and everything in between. I’m really glad I did it actually. :) The photog was v. nice (and funny… which is good cos sometimes you need a reason to smile). The 2 ladies from the company were also v. nice and also looked out for me. Good experience all around.

The assignment was for a bridal company. Yes, you saw right. Bridal as in wedding. Heh. The interesting part is that I had to work with someone else. Thinking about it now, I can’t believe I did that- hahahha. Anyway, the guy I worked with is named William. He’s a year older, a little taller and quite cute. Hee. And he’s a v. nice, sweet guy. Like, he would help me up, offered to carry my bag, opened doors for me. As a person, I didn’t feel uncomfortable with him; more like the situation was uncomfortable at times. (of course, shameless!Liza had to ask if he has a girlfriend… but I didn’t ask til the end of the day. Hahahha. Oh, the answer is no.)

Initially, I was a little worried about it…. but we first met the day before the shoot (when we went to get fitted for our clothes) and we had a nice conversation. So, that sorta allayed my nerves. The good thing is that we mesh pretty well. We could hold a conversation, joke around and stuff like that. We got along, which is a plus when you’re taking photographs and pretending to be in wedded bliss. (LOL!)

The shoot was an outdoor shoot. Which was crazy fun. (So if you saw a girl prancing around in a wedding dress, that might’ve been me.) We went to a few places: like Fullerton, Boat Quay, Chinatown and Sentosa. It was tiring, esp. walking in freakin’ heels and wearing a wedding gown.

Of course, we were incredibly uncomfortable and awkward in the first few photos. To pose in an close way with someone you just met and having to pretend to feel something for them is hard. And very very awkward. We cracked up a few times, naturally- okay, I cracked up a few times. But hey, laughter is the best way to diffuse a tense situation. We got better as time went on, of course, and by the end of the day, we didn’t bat an eyelash. Well, we still kinda cracked up (okay, mostly me) whenever we were directed to look at each other. Heh. But otherwise, I think mostly we got used to it. What we didn’t quite get used to was having people watch as we attempted to look like newlyweds. Hahahha. Talk about awkwardness! I hope the photos turn out good and that we were convincing enough. Hehehehe.

It’s v. weird to see yourself in a wedding gown. A little surreal. My hair was up, had make up on (it was v. pretty- I liked it), had flowers in my hair, a bouquet… and wearing a wedding dress. Very weird. We had two outfits, and I prefer our second one. I thought we looked good in that. I wore a corset-like dress (the bodice has lace and beads) with a longggggg train- it was an absolutely beautiful dress, and I loved it so much. And I had a tiara-thingy on my head. Hahahha. That dress really made me feel gorgeous. He wore a white suit, which looked very sharp. When I first saw it on the hanger, I didn’t think it’d look nice but it did. So, yeah I thought we looked good in that set of clothes. Hee!

There’s something quite… special about wearing a wedding gown. It just makes you feel really beautiful. I felt like a freakin’ princess. Hee. It was cool. And people react to it. It was… a little uncomfortable to have heads immediately turn to you when you walk past in a wedding gown. Especially, when y’know you’re not really a bride. Hahahahaah. (*cough* But it was kinda nice in some ways… hence, the fact that I might be a tiny attention-whore. Heh.)

We had some funny/interesting reactions to us throughout the day. At Chinatown, we couldn’t escape attention. While posing for some pics, I saw people (tourists, mostly) snapping photos of me and us two. It’s weird- you get self-conscious and embarrassed. Then when we walked through this alley of shops, the photog was snapping pics as we walked, which cracked me up… cos I felt so conspicious! Hahaha. And then while we were taking yet more photos, yet more people took pics of us and watched us pretend to be in love. Hahahaha. Awkwaaaard. But William and I laughed through it ‘cos it was the only way we could do it. Heh. And then again at Sentosa. Someone came up and asked if he could take a photo of us and next thing, a bunch of people are too. I was like “Whaaaa?”. (Seriously… what are those people gonna do with the pics? And I feel bad ‘cos they probably think that we’re a real couple, when we were just pretending. Sorry peeps!)

The other reaction we got was getting congratulated. LOL. That about killed me. It first happened in the Fullerton lobby when we were walking past and someone working there congratulated us. What could I do but say “thank you”? No time to go into explanations! Hahaha. We got that a few more times, and mostly rather than explain that it was only a photoshoot, we just said thanks. LOL. People just assume, I guess.

One other thing: Caucasian women seemed to most respond to seeing a bride. I had a few Caucasian women tell me that I looked beautiful (don’t all brides?) and just expressing joy at seeing a supposedly-wedded couple. (Oh man, we had 2 people ask if we had gotten married, and those were the 2 instances when we set the record straight. Oyyy. I’m too young for marriage yo!) And most of them just smiled at me (in a awww-you’re-getting-married-yay! sorta way). I think for them weddings are a really big deal, and they react to it openly, even with strangers. Heh.

At any rate, it was a good day. I had a lot of fun, and I’m definitely glad that William and I got along. Made it a lot easier to work together. I think my fave pics will be from the 2nd half of the day (with my fave dress) cos we got shots at Sentosa, which I think will look good, and at Boat Quay/Fullerton at sunset… which hopefully will look uber-romantic. Hehehe.

Okay… how totally weird will it be to see photos of me a) in a wedding dress and b) looking (or trying to!) lovey-dovey with someone? This is like a preview of my own future wedding or something. Hahahaha. (Except that my future husband will be JD Fortune. Hahahaha. I keed, I keeed. Wishful thinking baby.) I seriously love that second dress and would want to wear something like that for my actual wedding day. Awwwww. And imagine how something like this would be with someone you love… I bet it’d be easier and a lot more fun, cos obviously the love is there and being all cute and lovey would come naturally. Hehe.

And I realize that I actually do like the whole hair/make-up thing. Having someone (who’s good) do it for you is awesome. Makes you look like a million bucks. Hehehe. And then to have someone fuss over you; make sure your hair is right, your make-up is flawless and our clothes look good… again, you feel freakin’ pampered. Hee! What I dislike is getting all that gunk (make-up, hairspray) off- what a paaaaaain.

Then, at the end of the day, I drove myself crazy hoping that the shoot would end early-ish and that I’d have time to change and haul ass to watch Peter Pan. I was like 5 minutes late though and got locked out until 20 min into the show. Oh well. And I’m going to hell for thinking that thinking that the kid who played Peter is cute. First Tom Felton, then Dan Radcliffe and now Peter Pan-kid. Maaaaan, what’s with these cute/good-looking kids?

Need sleep. It’s been a long day.

:)

This is an extremely stupid feeling to have, but I can’t effing help it, and so I need to say it:

It still hurts my heart a little bit to see pics of YKW and his girlfriend.

There’s no reason why it (still) should. For goodness’ sake, I knew from the get-go that he had a girlfriend. I had to deal with seeing them around a few times (but not enough times apparently. *smacks self*). I knew the deal; I knew it, I told myself to get over whatever I felt for him… it didn’t fuckin’ work. Clearly. That was stupid, which I acknowledged many many times. But the heart ignores what the brain sees so I created a lot of self-inflicted pain and drama for myself.

But, whatever. That was last year. That was when I saw him a lot on campus, and as we all know, proximity is a bitch.

If that was stupid, I’m even more stupid now. I got a sick feeling in my stomach (okay, fine, I’m exaggerating… but it’s definitely a somewhat queasy feeling) when I saw that both of them had lovey-dovey couple pics on their profiles at thefacebook. It makes me go “Aaaaaargh”. Fuckin’ hell. And it’s just silly… cos it’s been a year since I was there. A little less than a year since I saw him. At least 2 months since we’ve spoken on AIM. I’m not obsessing/thinking of him as much as I did last year; rightfully so, given the lapse of time and the lack of contact between us.

So this irritating feeling of wanting to bash my head against my desk and yell at the injustice of the world (oh yeah, this is drama!queen!Liza rearing her ugly head) is darn irrational.

Aaaah, damnit.

I dunno… is it just a reflex action/feeling? Or is this me still being (majorly) hung up on him? Again, stuuuupid. Will I ever just be able to think of him as just a friend? Can the attraction just die or something?

Sighsighsigh. And to think that I could’ve spent this entry talking about the more interesting/fun part of my week.

Oh well.

OH. MY. GOD.

……

OH. MY. MOTHER. FUCKIN’. GOD.

My mind? Blown away. Blown to tiny little itsy bitsy pieces.

Just. WOAH.

Okay, I just saw a clip of a recent Kazi performance. And there are just no words. My jaw was pretty much wide open during the whole thing. Especially when the guys were doing their thing. Oh my effing God, that was some hot dancing.

Wait, I need to watch it again.

Dude, DUDE. The boys are so bloody HOT. God, my mind is still blown away. The girls were good, but something felt off to me. I think it was the energy or something, I dunno. But the boys were on fireeeeeeee. Good God, I just about squealed through their 2 dances. I lovelovelove the choreography. And they have a little breakin’ section that looks good too. Sigh. How much do I love boys who dance well? (A lotttttt!)

And damn, I’ve been forcefully reminded of why I was (am? Oh, who the hell am I kidding? Am.) so freakin’ attracted to YKW. This clip was like a bash on my head. Just in case I had forgotten. Hahaha. Seriously, he is so hot. Boy has skillssssss. I watch him, and woooaaaah. There are just no words. (Okay, there are words. Words like “Guhhhh”, “Aaaah, that’s so hot!”, “Niceeeeee!”. Does incoherent mumbling count as words? LOL.) And his roomie who’s also damn good dancer? OMG, he is awesome. I love watching him dance too. He’s just so sharp and his energy is off-the-roof. And he has this own style, which I love too.

I’m in a happy place right now. LOL. Sounds odd. But y’know… it’s that happy place one goes to after watching a damn nice dance performance. Hehe.

:)

[I interrupt the JD love-fest for a *gasp* serious moment.]

I’ve become an underachiever.

No really. I think so. It’s a kinda scary thought for a Virgo like me who’s a freakin’ perfectionist… but given my attitude towards school right now, I’m become an underachiever. I think I gave up after the ‘A’ Levels and just slacked off ever since. The funny thing is that I still seem to exude the aura of a smart/hard-working student. I am not. It’s a facade; not one that I’ve consciously cultivated, but it’s there nonetheless. It kinda amuses me really, but I’m not gonna disabuse anyone of the notion that I’m not as fabulous as people think. Heh.

My CAP (aka GPA) is nowhere near fabulous… I’m pretty much hanging on for dear life. Hahahah. Sad but true The even sadder thing is that I have very little motivation to get it up. Maybe cos no matter what I do (eg. get straight As for the next year), my CAP won’t go high up to get me a better degree. So I’m pretty much stuck where I am, and oddly enough it’s comfortable ‘cos there’s no pressure and I can enjoy my classes. (Granted, I don’t enjoy all of them, but that stress to get an A is somewhat diminished.)

So yeah, I’ve pretty much been underachieving in the past 3 years. I think it’s me… and to some extent, my learning environment. Uni-life hasn’t really been what I thought it’d be. And that’s why, increasingly, I can’t wait to graduate. Just move on with my life. Still don’t know what I’m gonna do, but my life needs a change.

Sometimes I wonder how I got here. And why I wanted to be here. For as long as I can remember, getting a degree was a pretty much a foregone conclusion. There was no question in my mind that I wanted to go to university. It might’ve come from my mom (who’s a graduate) and that sorta influenced me (although I’m damn glad I didn’t bow down to the pressure of taking law!). I also think it’s just me; I always sorta wanted to do the best I could. That darned overachiever streak that mysteriously died the moment I became a university student. LOL. And then to be here now, and just be blaaaaah? It’s a little sad. Well, maybe not sad per se…. but disappointing.

The thing is that I didn’t think and haven’t really thought about what I was going to do after I got a degree. It’s like the degree is the end goal, and after that, it’s a blank slate. It’s a little funny, but mostly I feel a little lost.

I just need to find a place for myself. Unfortunately, it’s not an easy thing to do.

Thinking about my life is… confusing. I take comfort in the fact that most people feel that way too. (Right?…. *crickets chirping* Right?)

Ah, everyone’s fave time of week: the end. Heh. I just wanna veg out and do nothing. However, that’s a luxury I can’t afford. Gaaaaah. I hope to get started on one of my essays this weekend. We’ll see how it goes.

I’ve been on a bit of a download frenzy. VM and OTH, among other things. Plus, I’m tempted to download the whole RS:INXS season. Like 8+GB. Hmmm. The VM ep is still going (70%!). I need me some (more) Logan!

And I just watched the OTH premiere. Hmm… this new season seems not too sucky. Of course, by “not too sucky”, I mean “ehhh, it was okay… thank God for the Pretty.” LOL. [shallow] And I have to say that my other boyfriend (Chaaaaaad) is looking good. The hair’s growing out, the snug t-shirts are hot and there were some Tristan-esque moments. (Aaaaah… how much do I still love Tristan?). [/shallow] And my other other boyfriend (Baby Jamessss!)… man, Nathan is so my fave character. He makes me wanna write fic. Dang, I’m still on the effing Nathan/Haley love-train! They make me wanna write fic. I dunno if I’m gonna keep watching the season… I’m enough of a sucker to do so. Hahah. Plus, it’s not like I’m watching that much TV nowadays. The only show I’m really invested in is VM. Alias lost me… unless they bring back a certain Mr. Sark. ;)

Aaaah, another hour or so before the VM download finishes.

Speaking of TV, my mom subscribed to a bunch of digitial cable channels. And damn, E! is like the evil channel. I just find myself parked on my couch, channel-surfing and eventually watching some show on E!. For hours on end. It’s a great procrastination tool. Hahahah.

Oh, I was watching my JD DVD with my mom just now. Tried not to smile like a fool during all the cute bits I like. Hahahaha. There’s something seriously odd/wrong with thinking “Guh! He is so hottt!” (and assorted dirty thoughts) while your mother’s in the same room. LOL. She’s not fooled though; she knows how batshit crazy I am. My mom has been on the semi-love-train, but I think she might be onboard now. Yeah beh-beh, convert #1! Nov. 29th, new album. CAN’T. WAIT! A whole CD of songs with JD singing lead vocals. Le sigh. That’ll make me a v. happy fangirl. (I’m trying not to mention JD… but y’know how when you have a crush on someone, you somehow find a way to sneak him into every convo you have? Yeah, that’s what this is.)

Hah, I’m realizing I’ve been on fangirl-mode for like the past 2 weeks or so. It’s kinda nice to be all gushy and giddy about something instead of talking about how life/school/whatever sucks. Hehehe.

[More JD gushing. Hahahahha. I. CAN’T. SEEM. TO. STOP!]

I now have high-res videos of his performances. Mad props to the lovely person to put up the torrent. Took me like a day and a half to get it, but it was well worth the time yo. My one complaint: why isn’t “Mystify” on there? Gaaaah. Sadness (cos I love that performance; boyfriend sounded fabulous). So, of course, I’ve been watching the vids. And I watched the “American Woman” one for the first time; I love my boy but admittedly, I started giggling half-way through and had to stop. Oy. He was a little too crazy intense there. Weirdly enough, I love listening to the mp3 ‘cos he sounds good. But the performance? Even drunk on the Everclear, I have to say it wasn’t his best. Heh.

I have so many favourite performances (like, three quarters of them are my faves… hehehe). And if I had started seriously watching from the beginning, he would’ve had me from “California Dreamin’” but as it is, I was on the love-train after “Hand In My Pocket”. CD was fabulous though, both the first performance and the encore. And JD’s arms? Holy craaaap. *drools* I also want me a tee that says “Hardstar”!

Anyway, the videos are gonna be my tools of indoctrination. Hahahha. Friends, you better be prepared for a deluge of JD if/when you come over to my place! I’ll play like at least 5 videos to try and convert you; mandatory viewing. If you still don’t like him, I’ll play another 5. Hahahahhaaa. I keeeed, I keeed. (Or am I? Bwahahaha.) Well, I’m thinking that at the very least, one can agree that JD is one sexy bitch. You might not like his voice or his performances, but boyfriend is fineeeee.

INXS tour dates for Jan/Feb next year just came out. Canada and the States. I hope they drop by our area after that! Sigh. I need to see them. And I need front-row centre seats so boyfriend can kneel down and sing to me. Hahahahahaha. (Seriously, observing his performances, he seems to like to interact/sing to the people in the front area of the stage… so hey, that’s where I gots to be. Heh.) By the way, friends, you will be coerced into going to an INXS concert when they come. Hopefully, my JD-indoctrination would’ve worked and you’ll go willingly. LOL.

Y’know, whenever I think that I’m far gone and batshit crazy and need professional help to get over this, I just go to the messageboards and find that a) I’m not the only one who’s gone over the bend over JD; and b) I’m really not that crazy in the grand scheme of JD-fans. Heh. Crazy loves company.

So now, I’m gonna figure out how to work my DVD-burner. :)

EDIT: Score! I now have a JD DVD. *pats self on back* (Except that I wish “Mystify” was on it but I can deal.) It was really quite fun trying to figure out to use WinDVD creator. I was testing out it on the DVD player (by “testing it out”, I mean “watching for the hundredth time and staring at the tv like a besotted idiot”) and my mom was like, “Oh, that’s nice. How’d you do that?”. Heheh.

Oh, and I realize that the reason I gush so much about him here is that no one I know is as crazy about him as I am. So I can’t talk to anyone about him and this is my outlet to just babble and go on and on about my OTL.

Heh. Okay, shutting up now. ;)

2 presentations next week. An essay the week after. Much much reading to do.

Instead, I did a new layout. Of course. This sort of thing always happens when you should be doing something more contructive.

I’ve been blathering on about my new boyfriend and future husband (haha) and so I just had to make a JD layout. *gazes at pretty layout* There are only little bitty pics of him so I had to make do. Eh, it looks all right to me. I’m so obssessed that I can probably name which performance(s) the photos are from. Heh. My fave one is at the top right hand; Boyfriend looks uber-hot there (the jawline, the messy-ish hair, the arms, the open-neck shirt… guh!). Of course, him in the pinstripe suit was all kinds of yummy too. And the sparkly megaphone! Heh. I’m like seriously in love with him. Le sigh. (And no one I know likes him so I have no one to gush with. Gah.) I think he’s my new OTL.

Anyway, it makes me happy that every time I come here, I see his pretty face. *grin* I wanted to use PV lyrics on the graphic, but none of them really fit with what I was going for. So those are lyrics to “Need You Tonight”; says it all quite well really. Heh. (And the alignment and everything looks good on my computer but I have no idea how it’d look on a computer with smaller screen res. Hopefully it doesn’t look too wonky.)

Oh, the other day, my mom was watching an ep of RS: INXS (we taped the last 3-4 episodes) and I was like, “You didn’t tell me you were watching!”. Hahah. Not that it mattered, cos after a few minutes, I wandered back to my room only to run back to the living room when I heard that JD was up next. I sat down, smiled like an idiot and sang along. My mom went, “You’re such a JD fangirl.” LOL. (I think the dopey, mesmerized smile at the tv screen gave me away.)

Okay, I’ll stop talking about JD. (For now. You know I’m gonna be talking about him again soon. Hahahha.)

Oh, the performance today went okay. Since the launch was for Coke Lime (which tastes gooood yo; it might be my new fave Coke variation!), they wanted us to wear a lime green top instead of black. So we went on a frantic search for something suitable. Man, that was kinda crazy. The bad thing is that it rained. We ended up having to wait like about an hour to wait for it to subside. When we finally danced, the ground was wet and I was in constant fear of slipping and hurting myself. But nothing unfortunate happened, luckily. So yeah, it was all okay.

Another weekend gone. Aaaargh!

I feel like drinking hot chocolate.

This coming week is gonna be my version of Hell Week. 2 presentations. Gah! I have started work on them, so I’m not a complete slacker. But I’m starting to feel the stress start to pile up. And yeah, an essay due the week after… and another essay deadline looming in the near future. Dang. I need to buckle down and really get to work.

I’ve been a constant and quite odd music diet for the past week: JD and INXS. I alternate between my JD CD and INXS Greatest Hits. The past few days, I haven’t been able to stop listening to “Never Tear us Apart”, which is such a great song. It’s kinda amusing to think that I’m like 20 years late on the INXS thing. Heh. And that the band is older than I am. Double heh. But it’s really cool that the show got me interested in them, which might have never happened otherwise. And it’s good music yo.

Today, I finally managed to go to the AppleCare peeps to see if anything can be done about Juju. The verdict: RIP Juju. I wasn’t optimistic about it to begin with so it’s not that huge a blow. But it’s still sad, y’know? He was pretty expensive and he lasted like 11 months. Le sigh. That said, I’m 80% sure that I’m gonna buy a brand-spankin-new iPod. I’m a little tempted by the Nano, but I need more space. My current music collection is over 10GB!

On the upside, it seems that the Fates are in my favour cos it looks like I’ll be getting 2 paychecks next month. First from a dance performance that the dance hall girls are doing. It’s on Sunday actually, and we’re doing an extended version of the dance hall DR routine for the launch of Coke Lime. A 2 minute dance, a few hours out of my day and I get moolah. Good deal. So, that’ll probably go to my iPod fund.

And I got this modelling job for a print ad (and for a quite known company too), which surprised me. (Long story short- I signed up with this small agency as a part-time model in August. Just for kicks really, and in the hope to make some money.) I went to the audition last week, and there were 3 other girls. I didn’t think I’d get the gig cos the other girls were Caucasian/Eurasian and apparently that was the look they were going for. (And I guess that I kinda looked a little Eurasian in my photos, which is why they called me for the audition? I dunno.) So it seemed they changed their minds and picked me (I suspect the fact that I was the skinniest chick there worked out in my favor… hahahaa). No details on the job yet (all I know so far is that it’s a print ad) but I was told that I’d probably get paid quite a bit since it’s a big company. Cool. I’m probably gonna feel a little nervous about it once I know when and what it’s gonna be. Hahhaha. Hopefully it’ll turn out well. At any rate, I’m looking forward to the paycheck. LOL. (I actually haven’t told my mom about this, which is funny, cos she probably wouldn’t have a problem with it. Eh.)

So between those 2 jobs, there might be enough coming in to pay for a new iPod. Or should I save the money for a rainy day? Hahahha. (I now have JD’s voice in my head going, “Spend it wisely baby!”. Heh. Yes, I’m obssessed. No, I’m not even trying to hide it anymore.)

I watched the VM premiere. Final-freakin’-ly. The download took forever. Some things I expected happened (though too quickly, I thought) and there were a few surprises, naturally. I need to watch it again. At any rate, it’s good to have Logan back again! And I think it’s gonna be a good season. I hope. I think this first ep sets up a lot of interesting things, and I’m looking forward to seeing it all play out. [denial] And damnit, I believe that Logan is still a marshie underneath all that angst and sadness. Poor baby. *hugs my marshie!Logan* [/denial] Seriously, all the information/characterization we’re getting I’m taking with a pinch of salt ‘cos, from experience, things aren’t as they seem. (Why yes, I’m a bit of a Logan apologist.)

If you’re not watching Veronica Mars, I ask you, “Why the hell not?”. It’s faaaabulous; you’ll not regret it. Go watch S1 if you haven’t. GO GO GO!