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The Month of Hell begins.

March 6th - presentation, essay draft due
March 13th - essay #2 due
March 17th - essay #3 due
March 31st - essay #4 due
April 5th - 2 independent study essays due (though hopefully one of them will be pretty much done before then since I have the draft due.)

Yeah, 5 essays in one month. Bring it on. Research! Reading! Library as my second home! Trying to formulate coherent arguments! Woot woot. /sarcasm

And let’s not forget that I have dance perf on March 4th.

Clearly, I am DED.

I was typing a post last night when netscape crashed on me, so now I’m too lazy to rewrite it all.

Suffice to say, Friday was a craptastic day. Too little sleep, too many classes, and a margarita (and a half) on an empty stomach, plus sleeping through watching a play/performance I didn’t understand equals not a great day. Meeeeeh.

I also wanted to do a Backstreet picspam, cos y’know one month ago and all… but I’m too lazy to look through my pics and resize them and all that shit. It’s coming eventually though. Maybe sometime next week when I will inevitably procrastinate and let my little hole get deeper as all my crap-to-do piles up. Hurrah. /sarcasm

I realize I haven’t talked about YKW in a while. Sorry, nothing new or interesting or exciting to say. He is gonna be in Tokyo on exchange for a few months from April onwards. Last time we talked, he was persuading me to go to Osaka, cos he has a friend there and we could stay with him. My piggy bank is pretty much empty, so the only way I can go to Japan is if I use my freebie ticket. Which is probably possible since I don’t hear any rumblings of a family holiday anytime soon. I don’t know if I wanna go there by myself though. Not that I don’t have the guts to brave Japan on my own; just that being there with him by myself, with no safety net of friends or whatever, is kinda scary. Well, maybe not scary per se… but it’s something. I don’t know. I want to see him again. I want to hopefully get some resolution about what I felt/am feeling about him. So… I dunno. He did say that if I couldn’t make it there, he’d try and find a way to come here. Which would be awesome, of course.

So, as of now, things are still unsettled. I’ve sorta mentioned to my mom about wanting to use the ticket to go to Japan, though I kinda fudged the why of it. Hahahah. Whatever it is, I need to see soon if I can go. SOMEONE COME WITH ME! (Heh.)

(Crossing that shit out cos I realize that I don’t wanna get back into all that pseudo-drama. Not talking about him = good. Let’s just leave it at that.)

Right.

Anyway.

Crazy me is looking forward to my dance stuff next week. Practices, class and then the big event on Saturday. Woot woot. Bring it on, baby! I’m excited. Of course, I’m conveniently forgetting all the other school work I need to do in the meantime. Sigh.

I did get myself a new batch of contact lenses. And just in time too. My eyesight has gotten worse though, which kinda sucks. Each side went up like 100 degrees. Gah. Getting blinder as the years go by. I also got new glasses, which makes me happy. They’re cute/nerdy black-framed ones. Yay!

Okay, by now it’s no secret that I often, if not always, wade in the shallow end of the pool. Heh.

I was watching the AI5 boys perform, and hot damn, Ace is TEH HOT. Daaaaamn. He is so good-looking. And he has a pretty good voice too. Not like a wow voice, but definitely listenable. That George Michael song was an inspired choice yo. And like I said, he is pretty. So throughout his performance, I was like “GUH!”. I hope he goes a long way cos the show needs some eye candy yo.

This time last month was the start was the Backstreet craziness. Around this time was when we saw/met Kevin & Howie at the hotel lobby. Hehe.

And so endeth the mid-semester break (that wasn’t really a break). Oyyyyy.

Ironically, I’ll probably be in school more often this week than any other week. I had dance practice for this little performance at a school; perf was this morning and we spent two days on it and unsurprisingly it wasn’t anywhere near fantastic but oh well.

Anyway, between the perf and dance class today, I had about 1-2 hours to kill, and I had planned to get some reading in. But I ended up going for the junior dance class too. I was reading/hanging out with some of the dance peeps at Dome before dance and Pat, our choreographer, came and chatted for a bit. When he left to go teach the junior class, he said that we’d be doing partnerwork and that it’d be fun and that I should go. (When Pat says “Jump”, you say “How high?” LOL. Well, not always. But most of the time. Heh.)

So, I went and when I got to the studio, I did the smart thing and got me a guy to dance with. I told Idil that we’d be doing partnerwork and asked him to be my partner. I’ve danced with him before (for our dansical show last year) so we sorta have a level of comfort. And I know that we can dance well together. Heh. True enough, as usual, girls outnumbered the guys and a few of the girls had to play the guy role. And well, playing the girl part is always so much more fun. LOL.

I loved the choreography! Pat has this thing for “Beep” (by PCD feat Will.I.Am); he’s been using that song mostly and the co-ed dance today was set to that. So! Cute! Well, kinda “naaasty” (in a good way… ahahahha) at some parts, but it’s all right since the song is nasty anyhow. Well, maybe not nasty per se; I think it’s a hot dance. But still, soooo cute. I’m always amazed at how Pat is able to mentally visualize his choreography and then break it down and teach it to us effectively. Esp. when he choreographs co-ed pieces; he breaks it down and then when it comes together, you’re like “Woaaah, that’s cool.” So yeah. I had a lot of fun and this means I’ll be going for junior class again next week since he’ll probably be continuing it. Woot woot! Funfunfun.

During senior class, we did the blocking and learnt some transitions and stuff for the item for Hip Hop Nite (if you’re reading this, YOU HAVE TO COME! Msn me for details yo, if I haven’t mentioned them to you). It’s all a little raw but I think it’ll come together nicely. Hopefully we won’t need any extra practice outside of next week’s. I’m doing the second dance item too, and I need to learn it!

So, seriously, next week is busyyyyyy. Dance, research work, preparing for a presentation… am I crazy? Probably. I just can’t say no to dance. Plus, this will probably be my last official dance event before I graduate and become an alumni member. Heh.

Anyway.

I had the Mexican dinner thingy (finally!) with Aishah and Mardiana. It was a good night; good company, dinner and conversation. We gotta do the dinner thing more often; next up is, apparently, steamboat. Heheheh.

Watched Brokeback last night. Hmmm. I didn’t think it was bad, but it didn’t live up to the hype. It felt a little too draggy at times for me. I think it’s the novelty of the homosexual storyline that is fueling its popularity. That said, what made the movie good was the directing, awesome cinematography and good acting from the leads. I honestly don’t know how I’d feel about this movie if I haven’t already been open to the idea of slash. Hmmm.

My money is still on Joaquin to win the Oscar. Heath was good, but Joaquin will win! *crosses fingers*

Oh man, today will be a much-needed rest day. Finally, I get to sleep in after 3 days of waking up early! And I needed to buy contact lenses. And maybe new glasses too, cos I’m sick of my rimless ones. Need to ask my dad if I can use his credit card to buy them. Heh. Yes, I still mooch off my parents. :P Should mooch while I still can! LOL.

I wanna say something, but I’m too tired to string my thoughts into coherent sentences.

In the meantime, spare me a minute and fill this up. Saw it at Jo’s LJ and thought it was interesting.

And oh, I’m a little late but HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BRIAN! :)

I have a headache and I don’t know why.

So, I’ve just realize just how big of a hole I’ve dug for myself. I was just looking at my planner and all the looming deadlines hit me in the face. Oyyyy. Plus, I have dance stuff coming up, which inevitably means rehearsal time. Too many things, so little time.

Clearly, something has to give. So I’ve decided that I’m not gonna be reading (for pleasure) for at least the next 2-3 weeks. I have 2 books with me now, and those I’ll read and after that, no more. And I’m gonna spend less time on MSN. Heh. Cos sometimes without knowing it, I spend like hours chatting. Esp. recently with the sgbsb girls. And y’know once we get started on our fave subject, it’s hard to stop. So yeah, less online time for me.

So, this effort to get work done starts tomorrow, actually. I’m putting up a to-do list at my table and it’s prioritised so that the things I need to get done will be done first.

Kids, this is what happens when you procrastinate and live in Backstreet La La-Land for the first half of the semester. You screw yourself over. Sadly, you’ll probably never learn from it and will do it again and again and again.

In other equally sad news, unless I watch Match Point within the next few days, I won’t catch it at all. The bad thing is that most of the showtimes are later at night. Sigh. Why oh why? I need me some Jonathan Rhys-Meyer to feel better!

At least I have Brokeback to look forward to on Tuesday.

I’m really digging Tyler Hilton’s version of “Missing You”.

Oh, and I dunno why but I got myself a MySpace account. So, if you’re on there, add me. My username is my name with a 1131 tacked on at the end.

And now, I go eat ice-cream to make myself feel better. (Mmmmm, chocolate.)

The Most Overrated Day of the Year is over.

I woke up only at 2pm (yes, my sleeping pattern is totally screwed), ate some pasta, checked e-mail and then spent the afternoon finishing a Julia Quinn book. Good times. (Sure, I had planned on doing reading for school, but what the heck.)

I had dinner plans with my JC friends; I didn’t realize that it would be on this day but since the guys are always busy with their dragonboat training, today was one night when most of us could make it. So, in honor of the lovey-ness of today, I wore black. Haha. On the way there, I had to not listen to Backstreet songs, cos most of them are sappy/emo and so I listened to hip-hop/R&B. I got some kind of perverse pleasure from listening to PCD’s “Don’cha” as I walked through the masses of sappy people with bouquets/teddy bears/whatever. Hah.

I find MODotY very irritating. And no, I don’t think it’s cos I’m single (and quite happily so, thankyouverymuch). If I had a boyfriend, I wouldn’t want to celebrate anyway. As I’ve said to some people, if I had a boyfriend, a random/surprise gift or nice gesture would score higher than an overpriced bouquet or teddy bear or overly-sappy dinner thingy on Valentine’s Day. Because once you do that on V-day, the gesture becomes trite; it loses its value ‘cos he’s doing it because he is socially-expected to do so.

Anyway we had a buffet dinner at this Japanese restaurant. I never used to like Jap food much, but I’m developing a taste for it. Still not my fave, but it’s nice. At least I know I won’t die of hunger if I go to Japan. Dinner was good. By the end of the night, I was so freakin’ full that laughing hurt. Heh. Still, it was nice to meet up with them all once in a while and just catch up.

Then, on the way back, I bumped into Mardiana and ended up going home together and talking about stuff. :) Like how much she wants to go back; and hey, she was preaching to the choir here. Heh.

So, the hot question I’ve gotten recently is: who is Helga? Ahahahahah. That’s what I get for putting “i wanna be helga” as my MSN nick. Riiiight. And, of course, I laugh everytime I explain it and people laugh/snicker when they hear it (and then ask if I’m kidding). Ahahahahaha. Yeah well. And it was freakin’ hilarious when one of my friends called my cell and went “Hi Helga”. LOL.

I’ve seriously been on a major, major downloading spree. I just checked and my Backstreet folder is up to 4.6GB. Wooooo! And growing. I was never really connected to any of the forums/sites before but I’ve started and I can’t freakin’ stop downloading. Esp. since I have so little footage/whatever to begin with. So it’s almost like I’m starting from scratch. Heh. I’d have even more stuff if rapidshare and megaupload aren’t being bitchy to me. Grrrrrr.

There’s complete concert footage floating around, and I now have 4: Saratoga Springs, Portugal and Shanghai and Beijing. Wooooo! Quality-wise, I think the Beijing one is best (it’s almost like 500MB!) and I’m thinking of burning it into a DVD. Good visuals and sound.

And the Boys performed at the Pro Bowl yesterday and footage was out. I have so so much love for the remixed “Everybody”- I love it to deaaaath. And AJ is so TEH SEX in that song. And and and he did a hip-wiggle thingy which just about KILLED everyone at sg_bsb. LOL.

I’ve also come to an important conclusion: beneath my “OMG! Nick! OTL 4evaaaah!111!!!” BS and bluster, I am a Brian girl. No, no, don’t scoff. I am a Brian girl. See, I can (and often do) snark to death about Nicky Nick… but Brian just makes me go “Eeeeee!”. So, my blind fangirl devotion actually goes to Brian. So yes. (Or can I just declare myself as a Frick & Frack girl? A 2-for-1 package baby!)

Watched Walk The Line with Cal on Monday. Damn, Joaquin is good. I’m betting on him to win the Oscar. And we have tickets for Brokeback on Tuesday! Woot woot. I still wanna watch Match Point. I’ll be bummed if I miss out on it.

Our mid-sem break is next week. Damn, half a semester gone and I’ve essentially coasted through it. I mean, seriously, I have done so so little. I’m just digging a damn big hole for myself to fall into. Le sigh. (Still can’t really bring myself to care.)

Still dunno what I’m doing with my life. Just sorta going along with the flow. It’s funny to get to where I wanted to be (ie to graduate from university) and then go, “What now?”.

What now what now what now? I don’t know.

Tird but not sleepy. Don’t you just hate that?

P/S: I reuploaded my Backstreet concert footage.

I got up, got dressed and then checked my email only to find out that my late class today is cancelled ‘cos my prof isn’t feeling well. D’oh. On the upside, I guess today was a good day for me to skip my early class! Haha.

So now I’m all dressed, with nowhere to go…. Okay, not true, since I’m be going out with my mom a bit later. Thank goodness I did check my email; it would’ve been sucky to make the hour-plus trek to school only to find out there was no class.

I haven’t really had anything to blog about; unless you want me to go on and on about the Boys (which, believe me, I can). It’s been the same ol’, same ol’.

School is so kicking my ass, and the sad thing is that I barely care. Seriously, I’m feeling v. jaded about school, about this whole academia thing. I mean, at one level, I love it… learning, thinking, seeng old things in new ways- it’s interesting as heck. And other times, it’s like BLAAAAAAH. I have really great and interesting classes this semester (honestly, honors classes are so much more thought-provoking and interesting, as well they should be… but if only all our classes could be like these). Some of the people in the classes? MEH. As Aishah likes to put it, they’re in the Pursuit of Pompousness. Ah well.

Dance is good, as usual. We have an event coming up, Hip-Hop Nite, and I’m most probably gonna be performing, which will be awesome. I considered taking part in the competition for like a nanosecond, then decided against it. But still, performing! One of the few things I’ll miss when I graduate is dance.

So many movies I wanna watch: Match Point (anyone wanna watch it too? Jonathan Rhys-Meyer! And I hear it’s a good movie), Brokeback Mountain, Walk The Line. There goes my supposed bread-and-water plan to save money. Hahahha. Esp. since I have dinner plans with my JC friends next week, and a Mexican dinner thingy in the works with Aishah. Damn, I spend too much moolah on food!

I’ve been getting the whole older-than-you-look thingy. I’ve gotten it from a few people quite recently, when I tell them I’m 22. Heheheh. Probably the way I dress? Not that I quite mind being thought of as younger, since y’know I’m in denial about my age. Hahah. But still, it’s interesting. And someday, looking younger will have its benefits. LOL. And I’m totally squeezing in all my mini-skirt-wearing days now, cos at some point it won’t be age-appropriate to be prancing around in short skirts. Ahahahaha.

My bro’s ‘O’ Level results come out today. I hope he does well; or at least well enough to get to where he wants to go.

(Oh hey, one entire entry without mention of the Boys. *pats self on back* fangirl!Liza is under control.)

*pets new layout* Preeeeettty! (Dude, you knew a Nick/Backstreet layout was gonna come!)

So. Life has attemped to go back to normal after the craziness of last week. Can’t believe that it was only last week that Backstreet were here. Been frantically uploading and downloading footage. Logan!puter’s big-ass HD will be handy. Hehe.

Still been listening mostly to them. JD!pod is on constant BSB-repeat. LOL.

Meanwhile, I’m trying to get into school-groove. Y’know, reading, researching, waking my brain from sleep-mode. Sigh. Not quite working. Yet. I live in hope.

I went for dance on Wednesday… it had been about a month of no dancing, so it was really fun to get back into it. Funfunfun. I remembered how much I love it. Of course, the next day I woke up aching. Eeek. That wasn’t too much fun. Remember people, warm-up is good. Heh.

Met with with Nance, Nat and Cal today. Nance is going back to Perth tomorrow, so it was good to see her. Hung out at Starbucks for a bit then went shopping. I dunno why, but I somehow end up shopping a lot with Nance. Heh. But mostly it was stuff that I already coveted anyway, so there were no impulse buys. Except maybe the shoes. But… SHOES! And they were a good bargain. Sigh. I’m such a shoe whore.

Anyway. I dunno. I don’t have much to say. And I’m too lazy. So in summary:

1) I miss the Boys. I miss the craziness of those 3 days. I miss the sgbsb girls!
2) Nick is TEH PRETTY in the “I Still” vid. *loves*
3) I need to get off my butt and start doing work.
4) Damn, it’s already February?!?!

KThanxbye.

Okay, this is the last of it.

Two people to thank:

Juls, for the video of my foot-in-the-mouth moment with Brian. Oyyyy… I’m still sorta kicking myself for that one. Damn curiosity. Damn words came out before I thought them through. Brian, I love you!

(Damn, I’m one lucky bitch for having footage of me meeting KFC! Thanks Kimmie & Juls! *hugs*)

My mommy, for being awesome. She works in the airport and was on duty the afternoon that Boys arrived. I coerced asked her to take footage and photos (and she in turn asked her colleague to take photos, while she took video). She knows how much I love them, and how much I love Nick (there’s a moment in there, where she goes “Where’s Nick?” when she couldn’t see him cos she knew I’d kill her I’d be upset with Nick-less footage). She’s a Kevin girl herself (with a side of Brian… she’s a KFC girl!). Heheheheh. Smooches to my mommy, for enabling my obsession.

Oh, one more: to my dad, who helped me capture the video. Damn, that was a lot of trouble. I couldn’t get sound on WMM, and couldn’t get anything on WinDVD Creator. But he figured it all out and I finally managed to get it working right on WinDVD.

So here are the clips:

The Boys’ arrival

My foot-in-the-mouth moment with Brian (and there’s Sarah sidling up next to him!)

And now, I give you footage from the soundcheck.
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Logan!puter has been on an uploading frenzy. I uploaded my concert footage to YSI. I still have soundcheck to do and I have yet to capture the video that my mom took at the airport. One week after the concert, and I’m still living in Backstreet-world. Heheheh.

Firstly, I gotta give much love to Cal for letting me hijack her cam. Heh. I didn’t expect to be right freakin’ in front, but I was damn glad I had her cam with me when I was smushed up against that barrier. I wouldn’t have half the footage to share with y’all without her cam. So, smooches to her.

And secondly, I like to ramble so I’m gonna talk a bit about what I like about the vids and stuff. Hehe. Feel free to ignore me and go straight to the links and download. There’s a bit of everyone in most of the clips, so it’s not like all you’ll see is Nick. Heheheheh. Equal opportunity, baby. So I hope you enjoy the clips!

(Please comment if you download. Just so I know. Hehe.)

[14/02: Files have been reuploaded to Sendspace, so links should be active. :)]
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