and i u n f o l d

In my next life, I’d wanna be a Pussycat Doll. Ohhhhh yeah. Preferably Nicole (the lead singer), ‘cos damn she is one sexy lady. Yowza.

I’d also like to admit that I really like their songs. I dunno; but they’re just v. feisty songs. I like. Heh. Their singles have been really catchy and danceable and y’know, hot. And if you haven’t seen their new video for “Buttons”, go see. NOW. I think their hottest video to date (though I really like “Beep” too).

So yeah, I’d like to be a Pussycat Doll. Since that’s not gonna happen in this lifetime, this might make me feel better. (Alas, so expensive! *weeps*)

I’ve said it before, but I’ll probably say it a thousand times more:

I LOVE BOYS WHO CAN DANCE. 

HothothothothotHOT.

I know, I know: it’s like 5am and I’m still awake. Craziness. But then my biological clock has been screwed for so long that this is almost normal.

Comments on here are being moderated so I get a little email telling me to approve any comments. Val left one, saying that my Carolina pics don’t work. Which I know, since I was too lazy to update the image links. And since I’m awake and had nothing to do, I decided to edit the post.

So, of course, I’m looking at it now and it reminds me of that time. It’s been, what? A year and a half, almost 2 years now. And I can still remember everything. Honestly, I can probably still talk for hours about my experience there, if you let me. I remember when I came back and people asked me how it was and I’d rave and babble… and then I’d have to consciously tell myself to stop because otherwise I’d bore everyone to tears. Yes, people want to know but they don’t really wanna hear every single freakin’ detail. But you can’t really help yourself, once you get started on it. You just wanna go on and on and share everything.

It’s funny when I reread the posts I made when I was there. There were so many things that I didn’t mention, in lieu of that… erm, interesting (or not?) boy-stuff. Ahahahah. And there’s a lot of me whining about school. But it is a pretty good record of some of the things I did do. On hindsight, I wish I had kept a private journal for myself. I did try to start one when I first got there; but I found that getting out and experiencing new things for myself was a lot more interesting than writing about it. Heh. Plus, i have no doubt that if I had kept a private journal, all the stuff I posted here about YKW would be there in as well. Except y’know, more of it. (I was honestly quite candid about the going-ons with him, which is a little surprising when I think about it now. But hey, it’s amusing to read it now. Heh.) Well, the lack of a journal hasn’t stopped me from remembering. Damn my stellar memory.

Early last year, after I came back, I whined a lot “” about missing Carolina. Which I did. And I guess some part of me always will. I’ll never again be 21, studying abroad, living independently, and having THE college experience. Those 4 months at UNC was what I had imagined college life to be. I’ll always be gald that I got that experience, even if it made coming back a little harder to swallow.

And Carolina will, I think, continue to symbolise something that I want for myself: independence.

Okay, I wrote like a paragraph after that line… deleted it, wrote something again, but nothing came out quite right. So that ends there, for now. I guess my brain’s telling me that it’s time to sleep.

Picspam alert!

Let it be said that yes, I have been trying to study. Heh. But y’know all study and no play would make life waaaaay too dull.

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I’m trying to drag everyone and their friends to Tokyo with me. Ahahahaha. Jen said she wouldn’t mind going if the trip was in June instead, and Meichan had said something like similar. So, I was thinking about it… and yeah. I’d rather go with friends than by myself, so I’m v. much open to going in June instead. So, Jen’s asking her friends if anyone’s interested, and Meichan also wants to go, so maybe it’ll be like a bigger bunch of people going there. Heh heh. So, seriously, the tentative departure date is June 15th and it’ll be a 5-6 day trip. I’m even more excited now that it’s possible and probable that I’ll have friends going with me. Yay for friends! (Anyone else wanna join in the fun? LOL)

Anyway, today was a productive day. For one, I got out of my house and away from my bed and computer. Which is a feat in itself. Went to Parkway to study with Jen and Val. Got some reading done, which is good. But motivation level is still freakin’ low. Eh. In between ’studying’, we talked some, took a bunch of silly pics and ate a lot. Ahahaha. Good times.

Then I went to watch Take The Lead with some Blast peeps. Yes, I have a weakness for dance movies. Anyway, this one was entertaining. And not too bad as a whole. I WANT TO LEARN HOW TO TANGO! (But, as Yaya said: cute partner required…. DAMN.) Honestly, I loved the tango routines. V. v. sexy/sensual/hot as hell. Sex on hardwood, indeed. Jenna Dewan was one of the lead dancers; and she is TEH SHIT as usual. Girl can move. Anyway, the movie was a lot of fun and hardly felt like 2 hours. I wish we had seen more of the dancing!

Youtube is a procrastination enabler. Oh yeah.

So, for the past like 2 weeks or so, I’ve been watching a lot “” of dance videos on there. It started with a video that someone posted on Marty Kudelka’s myspace. It was video of him and 2 dancers dancing the crap out of his choreography to “Be Without You”. That was some hot shit right there. And that led me to watch other dance videos on youtube.

So okay, I knew that I worship at the altar of Marty Kudelka after seeing the stuff he did for Jup. The CMAR choreography is still one of my faves. Hell, the entire Justified tour choreography kicks ass. So it wasn’t surprising that I become obsessed with this video clip. The choreo just is so good. And the dancers are like GUH. I wanna be able to dance like that! (If I’m ever in LA, I am going to a Marty class no matter what I have to do. Even if I look like a total uncoordinated idiot while dancing his stuff. I WILL BE THERE.) If you wanna see the clip, just search under his name and it’ll come up. I like the one of him dancing it solo, cos you can see how intricate the movements are and how nuanced it is, and I also like the one of him and the 2 other dancers cos you can see how others bring their own style to it. The tall dude in the stripey shirt totally kicks ass; that boy can move!

Anyway, from that video, I saw other videos. And there’s another dancer who blows my freakin’ mind away. His name is Tucker, he’s like 16-17, and he is so insanely good. (Search for Tucker and dance and there are a few clips of him.) I esp. love the one of him and another girl dancing to Gil’s choreo. GODDAMN that is awesome. And the clip of him dancing when he was 14? SICK. Even that age, boy had style.

Other clips I like are of Brian Friedman’s choreography. (Again, search under his name.) Set to “Control Myself”, and it looks really good. And if you watch the Group 2 clip, you’ll see Tucker kicking ass again. I honestly first thought he was Brian cos they have similar hair and all… but then I was like, no wait it’s Tucker.

(The really cool thing is that YKW met both Marty and Tucker at the dance convention thingy he went to earlier this year. When he told me he was going, I went “OMG! Marty is TEH SHIT!” and just generally freaked out, and the boy didn’t know who he was! But lucky boy got a pic with him. Heh. And he was the one who linked me to the clips of Tucker, cos he had met him at that convention too. Luuuuuucky! Color me envioous that he got to take masterclasses with kick-ass choreographers!)

So, no, after all these clips… I don’t think I can dance. I try. Heheheheh. The bar is set so high with talented dancers like these; so dancing is always an uphill battle. Alwaysalwaysalways. It’s frustrating sometimes, y’know? But what can you do, except try harder?

(And hey, don’t even get me started on them dancers on “So You Think You Can Dance”. Those peeps are versatile as hell. Speaking of SYTYCD, I read Blake’s resume and saw that he danced for Britney. I was like, OH. And then I saw pics of him from during that time… and EUREKA moment! He was the dancer whom I thought was hot. Who would’ve thunk it? But I remember watching a few perf of “Toxic” and drooling over one of the dancers, and it turns out to be him. Coinkidink. Heh. But yeah, he is hot, and he is a good dancer.)

So, classes have ended. And my days as a college student are numbered. Do I feel sad? No, I can’t say I am. Do I feel relieved? I dunno. Do I feel optimistic about the future? I guess I do, even though the future is pretty much a blank slate right now. I’m glad I’m graduating and I’m glad that I can finally do something else with my life. That’s good enough for me right now.

That said, I’m still technically a student until May 5th (Day of Freedom, ie my last exam). Unfortunately, my motivation level is at ZERO right now. Z-E-R-O. I’m not kidding. But I still need decent grades so I’m really gonna hit the books next week (erm, make that this week…. or y’know now). My first exam isn’t til April 27th, but given that I’ve skipped out on a few of my classes, I need to play catch-up badly. Aaaaah. Joy. /sarcasm

So what else has happened? I’ve spent a lot of time at home. Sleeping. I really do sleep too much. And reading. Which I also do too much. Wow, such an exciting life I lead.

The only really cool thing that happened lately was me winning 2nd for Best Rockstar at the Nike Rockstar Workout. I went with some Blast friends; for fun, to blow off some steam and just to get out of my house. It was crowded as hell. And I was gasping for dear life about halfway through the workout (which made me realize that my stamina level has plunged since the days I was tomboy-ish and enjoyed running around and being sporty). That was not pretty. Heh. The damn strobe lights (headache!) and lack of fans and fresh air (gaspgasp!) was horrid as well. But I stuck through most of it. And quite unexpectedly won that prize. So, twas cool. And the prize is so TEH SHIT. $400 worth of Nike vouchers (I may be an Adidas whore, but DAAAAAMN $400 at Nike is sweet!), 3 months free membership at Fitness First and a free spa thingy. Yeah baby. That’s the good stuff right there.

Oh yeaaaah, another fun thing was the cyberart project we did for one of our classes. We had to produce a piece of artwork with a political message/meaning for part of our grade. And my group produced a short film. Filmed and edited by ourselves in 2 days, it turned out pretty damn awesome. I really like it, and it was an awesome way to end the semester (since that was my last assignment). Plus, Kenneth (our tutor) complimented the film by saying that it was well-made and that we should submit it in competitions. Hee! That’s tickled us, considering it was all done last minute. But a cool compliment all the same.

Oh man, it’s good to have this place up and running again. It’s been a frustrating time yo. Firstly, GM got cut off at the old domain and so for about a week or so I really couldn’t do anything. Luckily, the domain was expiring anyway, and it was time to either renew or get a new one. So y’know, fresh start and all: Cal & I talked it over and decided that it was time for us to wave goodbye to denile. (Sniff. It was fun!)
This one right here is the 3rd domain we’ve had and each domain sorta reflects our fandom interests at the time we bought it. Unperfection was inspired by JC and Selfish; Denile was a result of our Sark/Sydney infatuation; and this one Paper-o is from Veronica Mars, which is our current tv obsession. So yeah. Plus, it’s a really cute name. I don’t wanna spill the story behind the name (or rather, the quote that the name is from) so I’ll leave that for when the main site is up and running.

The domain has been alive since last weekend; but I’ve had a helluva time trying to get this site up again. One word: Wordpress. Oyyyyyyy. *headdesk* I nearly killed myself with frustration. I still need to figure out how to customize the templates (I have this pretty Mraz header I made for this site to use!), but for now I’m just happy that everything is pretty much in working condition. It’ll probably take me at least another few days t read the Wordpress Codex and figure out the customization process; til then, this theme will do just fine.

Also, I decided to change the name of the site to Unfold. Yes, after the Mraz song of the same name. I just love that song so much. Plus I thought the imagery of ‘unfold’ with the name of the domain ‘paper-o’ works really well. Heh.
Okay, for today, I’m done with tinkering with the site. There’s only so much HTML one can look at without going crazy. Heh.