and i u n f o l d

“And, when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.”

I must be low on the waiting list for aid from the universe, because in the stuff that matters, it hasn’t quite gone my way. Or maybe it is going my way but I just don’t see it somehow because the effects have yet to materialize.

Positive thoughts, positive thoughts. Sending good vibes out to the world and hoping that some good will reflect back to me.

My previous lame-ass post in which I “fished for compliments”, of course, has to do with TbB. No prizes for guessing right. That’s a description he gave of his dream girl. AHAHAHAHAHHA. Yes, I snickered to myself when I read the descrip. Because, yes. But, like I said, that was my pathetic attempt to amuse myself. ‘Cos I don’t think I fit into that description. Haha. TbB, that better have been a PR answer. LOL! ANYWAY. Despite the seeming lack of assistance from the universe, I’m hanging in there. In the words of Ne-yo: I try and try but my obsession won’t let me leave. (Damn, I love that song.) So, I’m exercising patience. And a blind faith in the machinations of the universe.

Work hasn’t been completely terrible. I know, I know; pigs are flying; I’m still blah about it but I get through it somehow. Another month has passed and hopefully in two months’ time, I’ll be posted elsewhere. It’ll be a good birthday gift, haha. I’ve also gotten my annual leave entitlement, thank God. So I can look forward to some time away from the drudgery of work. Maybe go to Bangkok with my mom. I have no qualms about just rotting away at home for a few days either. I think I’m gonna take a couple of days leave in July and August, for the sake of my sanity. I know for sure that I want a long break during the Nat’l.Day period (2 days of leave will translate into a 6-day break, incl. the weekend!). Got 2 exams coming up too, which takes me away from work. Haha, anything to get away from the phones yo. I hope I pass both of them (I need to study after I’m done with writing this, heh).

Had the company D+D on Saturday, which didn’t turn out too bad. Food was decent, Ku.mar was a riot and I hung out with some of my colleagues after we left early once dinner was over. We went to Cafe.Iguana for drinks. Talked crap all night. Sometimes I think it’s funny that I get along with them; we’re all different people but somehow we gelled. It’s nice. When I first met them, I didn’t expect or think that we’d get along well or have much to say to each other, but it worked out. I have a good time with them, we laugh together, we have nice conversations and it’s cool. That’ll teach me (for like the tenth time, or more) not to judge people so quickly.

Looking forward to the Xtina concert on Saturday. It hasn’t hit me that she’s coming and she has a concert and I’ll be there. Strange. I know it’ll be awesome though. I just might kick myself for not wanting to fork out for more expensive tickets. But as long as I can hear her, I’ll be happy. Heh.

Funny that my impulse to shop hasn’t raged and taken over me. (Haha!) Okay, I do confess that I broke my word and bought some spree stuff online. But it’s not as terrible as it initially was. I think I’ve gotten the impulse-spreeing out of my system. I do love the stuff I’ve bought online, though. And okay, fine, I also bought 3 things from the M.NG sale. Dude, I can’t resist the M.NG sale; I have to buy something. I’ve also realized that, damn, I do have a lot of clothes. Man, I wish we could wear whatever we want to to work because then I’ll get more mileage out of my clothes. As it is, I’m like telling myself, ‘Go out! Go out and wear your pretty clothes!’ (except that more often than not, I find myself wanting to do nothing but curl up in bed with a book during the weekends). Yes, friends, ask me out so that I can wear my new stuff. LOL. This is what happens when you don’t have a guy to impress with your fabulousness. AHAHAHAHAHAA. :P

Payday tomorrow, woot woot!

Would you describe me as “patient, cool, caring and understanding”?

AHAHAHHAHAHAHA.

No, really. Would you also say that I have “a sweet face”? AHAHAHAHAHAHHA. Okay, fine, I wouldn’t say I had a sweet face. *snicker* You don’t have to lie to me. Really. Ha!

If you want to know where the pointless questions come from, you’ll have to answer them firsssssst. Heh. Haha, I am so amusing myself. :P (You spoilers who already know the source, DON’T YOU DARE GIVE IT AWAY! LOL.)

Aside from that ridiculous exercise, I don’t even know why I’m here. Nothing to say. Weekend was okay. Back to the craptitude that is work tomorrow. Blaaaaah. Hmm hmm hmmm.

I’ll shut up now. (And find something to do.)

So, after all that talk, I finally walked danced the walk dance. (Wow, sorry for massacring that saying. Haha!) I’ve been whining about wanting to do lyrical for ageeeees and I finally bit the bullet today. Enough of being restricted by my work schedule and trying to coordinate with other people. All the plans I’ve made in the past had fallen through and I was like, FUCKIT I WILL GO BY MYSELF. Yup, I kept that promise to go the next time I could. Yaya gave me a lil pep talk last night on MSN saying that I could do it and all. Heh. Thanks babe!

So, I went. And wow O.Sch.ool is kinda swaaanky. Nice place. And the studio is fab. I went up to the counter and Dan.iel (Hani, he’s the dude who won the solo cat in Over.drive that you were losing your shit over, lol!) was like demonstrating some dance move and almost bumped into me and he went, oops sorry and then went into official mode by going, “Hi, how can I help?” or something like that. Twas funny. And then while the girl was processing my thingy, this tiny tiny girl came up and smiled at me while waiting her turn. It only hit me like 10 minutes later that that was Daph.ne Kh.oo. I guess I don’t recognize her when she’s not singing. LOL. But seriously, she is TINY. GEEEEEEEEEZ.

ANYWAY.

The class. Kinda full, which I expected. Some familiar-ish faces (from N.RA). Some peeps I know from Pat’s class. Warm-up was hellllll. I haven’t done a proper warm-up in eons so my muscles were screaming out. The crunches? Made me want to kill myself. Let’s not even talk about the stretching. I am gonna ache tomorrow.

So, the choreography was to Mariah’s WBT. Aaaah, lovely song. I was glad/relieved that he used a song that I knew so at least a bit of the battle was already won. Heh. I really really like Ry.an and his style of teaching. I’ve taken a few of his classes before at Wu so I already sorta knew what he was like. But it comes across more in this class. Cue funny noises (him imitating the beats) and us trying to get the choreography. We repeat every new combo we learn at least twice and then another twice with the music. Then we build it up and then repeat from the top. Good God, I was out of breath and dying by the end!

There was this HILARIOUS moment. We do a slow turn and then 2 steps back of groove before hitting the 8. And the 2 steps back are supposed to be soft and groovy and he totally called us out on how terrible it looked. Ahahahah. And he said something I believe also, that dancers here can get the choreography but lack groove. Dude, isn’t that what I’ve been saying since like FOREVER?!?! So then he makes everyone just groove and tries to break it down and describe it and it was so amusing. LOL. That was really funny.

It’s interesting though the way he teaches the moves. He does break it down and he does sorta describe what to drag and what’s fast or sharp or whatever. So you have an idea of it but then the challenge comes when you need to fit it to the music. Twas fun. Frustrating at times, but really fun. I had to stop and just watch him do it cos there were a few bits that eluded me.

It was a great class because every thing is like a revelation. Moves are not just moves. It was interesting when at the end we were broken into groups and I could watch some of the people dance it. They got the moves (though not all were clean) but the vibe was nowhere there. Until right at the end, Ryan called out 2 guys to do it and one of them was like OMG!GOOD. (I think he’s a N.RA-boy cos he was hanging with the N.RA girls.) He had his own flava yo and it looked damn good. And the way he danced it made a light bulb click on in my head: THAT’S THE WAY IT’S SUPPOSED TO LOOK. And it become so clear (when it was a little too late, since class was pretty much over) which moves to milk/drag and which to hit and what what-not. That boy was real good; kudos to him.

That was the most difficult, in many ways, 0:39 worth of choreography I’ve learnt. It takes so much skill and style to be good at it; to catch the beats almost immediately, to sorta instinctively know when to slow it down and when to hit it hard, to adapt to that slow/fast dichotomy and also how to make it look damn fuckin’ cool. Maaaaan.

As for myself: I got the choreography, for the most part. I was just a lil frazzled at points about when to exactly hit it. One particular section frustrated me the entire night. And so I was a little fast/lost during that part. Haha. If class was half an hour longer, I would’ve gotten it by the end. Heh. I can’t pick up the nuances as quickly (yet) but I suppose that comes with more exposure to it and more classes/practice. I don’t think I’m as stiff as some of the people I saw (got some groove la, heh!), but still got a long way to go to get to the awesomeness of that supposed-NR.A boy I mentioned above. Heh.

I really really loved the class though. My lungs and legs and every part of my body were like fuckin’ dying at the end, but it was an awesome class. I feel like I’ve learning something new which, of course, I am. Love it love it loooove it.
And yes, I will be going for this class every damn opportunity I get (which is every two weeks). ;)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IGlbih-6yg4

That right there is evidence beyond a doubt that I need to go to LA so that a) I can take dance classes; and b) hook up with my very own awesomely talented dancer!boy. The 5 guys in the 2nd clip: ORGASMIC! ‘Cos DAMN, those boys are effin’ good. Like those 5 in the 2nd half the clip: I would take any one of them. Any one, it don’t matter which. Hell, anyone who even dances like that is good. Because, yes. Imagine a WHOLE CITY FULL OF THAT. Good lord, I don’t think I would survive. Also, I should mention that I have special love for Kenny; he’s the one in the middle, wearing all black. Such an awesome dancer. Love his style. (For another look at Kenny, he’s the one in the jersey: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e-QHawDAHqE)

So, we’ve been saying and saying that we wanna go to the Motherland. And it’s gonna happen, damnit! Next summer yo. And my own personal plan (besides saving moolah to get me there): take dance classes every damn chance I get so that when I get my ass to LA, I won’t look like a total fool when I take dance classes there.

It can’t be said enough: I [BIG BIG RED HEART] DANCER!BOYS.

Also, new season of my fave So.You.Think.You.Can.Dance is on. Woot wooot! I’ve got my eye on a few of the guys (not only good dancers, but hot too…. how do I resist? I can’t.) and one or two girls (Lauren and Sara!). I hope they do some kick-ass routines; I mean, I love the other genres but obviously I have special love for the hip-hop routines. Esp. when they’re well-executed!

[broken record] I NEED TO TAKE MORE DANCE CLASSES. [/br]

It’s official: A.ldo shoes are my new weakness. Bought a beige/nude colored pair of heels. $111 after 30%. I had to yo. They were calling out to me. Hani made me reconsider by retelling me to look around first… but at the end of the day, I did buy them. So pretty! Looooove. (My poor abused feet; it seems like I wear heels alllll the time now. Heh.)

Cal, Hani and I were at Vivo today, courtesy of me. Haha. I’ll divulge the reason later but first I gotta rave about the awesome salad bar at the Swen.sens at Vivo. BEST SALAD BAR EVEEEEEEER. I got bored of my main dish but had seconds from the salad bar. Their croutons? Best I’ve ever tasted. I know that sounds weird but I really loved them. The whole salad bar was really great; a lot of variety and so yummy. Worth the moolah for the salad bar alone.

Hani was fashionably late (as always) but she made it in time for the main reason I asked them to go to Vivo: TbB. I know, I know. But y’alls, I hadn’t seen him in like a month and a half! The event was to promote racial harmony (cue sarcastic comments about the facade of racial harmony and “don’t make me go all sociological on you!!11!!!1″, ahahahha) and before TbB came on they had the winner from Pro.ject.Super.star and some In.dian dude who won the Indi.an equivalent sing 2 songs each. Hilariousness ensued as we snarked like the crazy people we are.

Was waiting for TbB to emerge at the side of the stage we were standing at… but since he’s such a star, instead of waiting along the sidelines (like the previous two), he only came out after his name was announced. Boyfriend was looking hot (but then I’m not objective since I pretty much always find him hot; clearly adoration has blinded me) and I was all like sighhhhhh. Opening strains of his song came on and Hani squealed cos he was gonna sing her fave song. LOL. I cracked up like crazy and Cal pretended not to know us. Haha.

As usual, Hani was doing her pimping of me: “Smile! Smile!”, “Are you looking at him?”, “OMG! Did he just look at you?!?!”. AHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA. Freakin’ hilarious. Hani is convinced that there was this moment that he looked at me, like a cheeky sideways look. I saw the look but I don’t know if twas aimed at me. Hani thinks it was. LOL. I dunno.

Anyway, he just sang 2 songs and then left, so twas really short appearance. But I guess twas nice to see him? I don’t know what to think anymore about this whole insanity.

It’s the weekend, wooooo! I wish it lasted longer, even though I just had a long-ish public holiday since I was off on Wed. Bah. Work sucks.

P/S: I am loving the new M5 album. A different sound from the first but there’s still something distinctly M5 about it. I still think that Adam is an amazing lyricist; I f’love the lyrics on their songs. I love the beats but I really find myself paying attention to the words… and then having to suppress a laugh/smile when it turns out the lyrics are dirty-ish. Hee! Current fave is Can’t Stop, probably cos I can relate. LOL.