and i u n f o l d

So, if you weren’t already aware, my cell phone is FUCKED UP. It randomly decided that it didn’t wanna send messages anymore and hangs whenever I try to type one. It was inconvenient but now, for some reason, it’s really starting to bug the living day lights out of me. I’m not even that into phones; as long as I can call, sms and it has a decent camera, I’m good. Music is a plus, but hardly necessary. The other fancy stuff? Don’t particularly need it. Figures that out of allll it’s features, the SMS function was the one that died on me. *facepalm*
Add to that my frustration about Mo.bile.One. Those $(__)+&^$#$^&! I don’t know why I’ve been so “loyal” cos I (and my mom) have had some seriously fucked up moments with them. And this is the last straw, really. My current number is under my mom’s name and I’ve had it for like 6 years? Something like that. I’ve grown attached to it. Plus it’s a nice number. Anyway, with my job, I’m eligible for the corporate plan which is cheaper but it’s fucked up cos the line needs to be under my name and they don’t do transfer of ownership. At all. Ever. Like, not even now when the line is eligible for an upgrade and I’m willing to sign up for another 2 years. And I’m currently paying about $35/month (for my plan and for Caller-ID) which is expensive yo. I could save at least $10 on the corporate plan!

Now see, I know it’s not the CSO’s fault whenever I get an answer/solution that I don’t like but I have issues with the company’s processes. I’m sure that each service provider has their own peculiar issues but right now I’ve had it with M.1. This customer is saying bye-bye.

The problem is: my phone’s fucked and I need a new one, NOW. And the phone I’ve been coveting, I’ve only seen at an M.1. distributor. (A red Sam.sung phone… really pretty. I think it’s the Z.720 or something that looks similar to it.) But, fuck, I’m not gonna tie myself to them for another 2 years for that phone… and pay a higher monthly than I can get on the corp plans! Ridiculous. So, pretty much my only and best option now is to wait out my contract (it ends in late Nov) and then jump ship, get a new phone then and get my number retained.

Til then, no SMSes from me.

Don’t you just hate it when you’re hungry and you’ve eyed that piece of leftover pizza in the fridge… but when you go to check., it’s gone (GONE!)? Aaaaargh. Damnit. Now I’m tempted to call for McDeli.very. Bah.

Day 1 at new job went by pretty quickly. I was a little tardy but it seems everyone only comes in around 9-ish so the office was pretty much empty anyway. Haha. Spent most of the day reading things that I need to know. The guy who’s mentoring me is resigning and will leave next month so I have that much time to learn everything he knows. Niiiiiiice.

It was sorta strange to be away from telephones but a hell of a relief. I just feel so much lighter and without that dread that followed me whenever I went to work. Good change, eh? New job scope seems all right so far… nothing too mind-blowing. I reckon it’s just a matter of time and getting comfortable with it and slowly learning everything I need to know to do my work. The big event is the internal audit which starts in December so I definitely gotta know my stuff by then.

People seem nice though I haven’t really talked to anyone. Still orienting myself to the place and the way things work there. Also, Nazira is working at the same office! Coinkidink! Having at least one familiar face is reassuring. Heh.

Walking to the office from the train station in Aldos is a biiiiiiitch. Peak hour is a motherfuckin’ bitch. I had forgotten how terrible it is. Plus, the damn bus was full (twice!) which was just _)#*_)&^*). Waking up when it’s still mostly dark outside is a biiiiiitch. So NOT a morning person. I’ve resolved to be leave my house earlier to account for peak hour, the occasional (maybe once a week so that I don’t blow a total hole in my pocket) morning coffee, and a leisurely walk to the office which will not kill my Aldo-ed feet (much). Hahaaaaaa. I also need to realign my sleeping habits so that I can get a decent amount of sleep.

My mom’s birthday is tomorrow! And I haven’t gotten her gift yet! Aaaargh. Suggestions?

I GOT THE JOBBBBB! Wooo hooooooooooo!

And better still: I start on Monday.

It all happened quite quickly. Interview on Monday. On Tuesday, I heard through the grapevine (ie. my team leader who received an email from our supervisor) that HR requested for the department to release me (as well as one of my other batchmates) to our new positions on Monday. I was like, YAAAAAY! and was quite pleased. But I held off all my excitement about being posted out so soon because I personally hadn’t heard from HR or anything like that. Didn’t wanna put 100% into the office grapevine without any confirmation from HR. So I was in a bit of a lull… really relieved and excited but a little apprehensive. I didn’t want to countdown my leaving and be so YAAAAAY! about it, if it turned out that I still had to stay for a while longer.

Finally, today, when I came in to work, I saw that I had received an email from HR with confirmation of my posting and telling me to report to my new supervisor on Monday. HELL-FREAKIN’-YEAAAAAAAH! And suddenly, it felt like I wasn’t prepared to leave. Oh, not that I didn’t want to or wasn’t (mentally) ready to leave… I just hadn’t really told some of my colleagues, hadn’t said my goodbyes and thanked people properly. Felt like I was just running off.

Had dinner with my team leader and some colleagues. Had a good team briefing when everyone was told about my leaving and everyone wished me well. Some people were like, “Oh, I heard you’re leaving… all the best” etc etc and that was really sweet. And one of my colleagues (who coincidentally happens to know my mom cos they used to work together; she’s a totally nice lady) gave me flowers! Sorta a goodbye and advanced birthday gift. I was so touched, esp. cos she was only working half-day today and she came back in the evening to give me the flowers. That was really nice.

And that just sums up my 6 months there. I might not have liked the job at all but my friends and colleagues completely kept me sane, kept me from total utter depression and kept me from just quitting and breaking the bond. I’m glad to leave that job behind but it was sad to say goodbye. It surprised me how I had grown attached to that place and the people there, despite hating my actual work.

That said, I guess it is when my work-life really begins. I’m looking forward to it and hopefully it’ll be good. Feeling positive about it and about how I will cope. Things can and will only get better from now on and it’s damn damn good to be feeling happy and excited about my life again.

:)

Wooo! Interview today went well. Not as nerve-wrecking as I thought it’d be and it seemed like they were sussing out my interest more than anything. And I am interested and I think I conveyed it. Haha. So hopefully it works out. *crosses fingers*

I also met with Val! Haven’t seen her in ages, so twas good to see her and catch up. Heh.

I have a freakin’ exam (my last!) on Wednesday and I have yet to study. Aaaaargh. *headdesk*

Also, TbB has crawled out whichever cave he’s been hiding in. Woot! He had some thingy in JB erm… yesterday? Something like that. Damn him and his Ma.lay album and doing promo in freakin'’ M.sia. Dude, I adore him… but to venture to JB to see him?!!? I’d be scared for my sanity if I actually succumbed to that. Oyyyy.

However, at least I can live vicariously through the devoted fangirls who really follow him wherever he will go. LOL. Boyfriend was looking hot in JB, y’alls. GUH. He did a little dance break and I’m psyched to say that boyfriend was workin’ it! Clearly, he’s been practising. Heh. dancer!TbB has made me giggle crazily in the past (in a “OMG, I kinda have to cover my eyes”-type of way, although he really isn’t bad) but I thought he was really good in this dance break. It was hit very nicely, nice isolation and musicality was very spot-on; I’ll bet it was choreographed though cos it looked way too put-together for a freestyle. AHAHAHAHAHHA. Still, props to TbB for stepping up. Are you trying to make me adore you more?!?! Sighhhhh. Come back to S.poreeeeee, I miss seeing youuuuuuuu. [/pathetic]

Even more exciting than TbB re-emerging: MA.RTY! KU.DELKA! Here! In SINGAAAPOREEEEE!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.

Dude. Dude. DUDEEEEEE. *flails*

He’ll be here to perform for the Over.drive party and he’ll be bringing 2 of his entourage dancers with him. If by “entourage dancers”, they mean “his dancers who are on the FS/LS Tour”, then I’m doubly excited because KEN.NY IS ON THAT TOUR. KENNNNNNNNNYYYYYYY! Kenny is love, y’alls. And Kenny + Marty = ded!Liza. OMG, KENNNNNNNY. If he comes, I will DIE.

Even cooler is the fact that Mar.ty will be having a masterclass. EEEEPPPPPP! I’ve said before: “If I’m ever in LA, I am going to a Marty class no matter what I have to do. Even if I look like a total uncoordinated idiot while dancing his stuff. I WILL BE THERE.” So I guess I have to eat my words now that he’s coming here. Hahah. His masterclass is for “advanced hip-hop instructors and dancers” and there’s a registration form from which they’ll select the participants. SCARY! But I figure that I will hate myself if I didn’t even try to apply. So, yes, I will apply and put up my meagre dance experience and try not to gush about how much I want to be in that class. Haha. And, on the off-chance that I do get selected, I will proceed to freak out about how idiotic I’ll look in his class. Wahahahah. But yes, apply first… and cross my fingers.

How excitiiiiiiiing! Martyyyyyyy! Here! Dancing! Probably to a Jup song! (And maybe Kenny too!) Aaaaaah! And I thought seeing Wade last year was awesome. Gaaaaah.

Quel surprise!

Things really do seem to be getting better. I was checking my online (work) schedule and saw something new and unexpected: I’m scheduled for an interview for my posting on Monday. I was like, HUH?!?! cos I hadn’t received any news about it (yet). But I checked out the other person convened for the interview and she’s a manager with the corpo.rate planning department! So I deduced that I’m being considered for a vacancy there. So! Excited!!! How awesome! Once I get (confirmed) information on the interview, I gotta prepare myself to kick ass and grab that vacancy by the balls. Ahahahahaha. But let’s not count my chicklets before they hatch. Heh.

Went for LAHH today. Fo’reals y’alls, I LOVE THAT CLASS SO MUCH. I don’t feel as much as an idiot in it as I do in LHH, which I suppose helps. Hahahaha. And really, in my next life, I WANT TO BE JUST. LIKE. G.IN! She is so the coolest chick. She was dancing in baggy jeans, oversized t-shirt and TIMBS! Aaaaaah. She is TEH COOL. I have such a girl-crush on her, haha.

I’m thinking that I might priortize LAHH over LHH. But I suspect that I will gladly drive myself to the brink of exhaustion and take both classes. :)

Also, I [BIG BIG HEART] IVA.N KOU.MAEV: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ia2Kk3u-c4w
Him in that routine is some of the dopest shit I’ve seen in a while. He is such an amazing dancer. Fluidity, grace, power and control and choreography that has very strong musicality. Le sighhhhh. And while Travis is a majorly talented dancer, I.van totally and completely pwns in that routine. Ivan = LOVE!

P/S: Haaaaapppy birthday to my Leo friend, Haaaaaani! :D (And her cosmic bro, JC!)

I go on leave for one day and all hell breaks loose. Like literally…. our sentence in Hell is officially coming to an end very soon. We got news of our posting today. THANK GOD. Downside? Most will be going to branch.services. Upside? I think I’d take that over the misery of my current position. Some will be posted to operating departments… don’t wanna hope that I’d get that chance cos chances are slim. I did email HR asking them on what basis people will be posted to operating departments and hopefully I’ll get an answer. So that I can at least understand the decision-making even if I get posted to a branch.

Good timing too, cos for the last month, I’ve really been in the dumps. I was a little worried about my emotional state; I felt so on the edge and so quick to get angry, get irritated… and so quick to cry at absolutely nothing and everything. I didn’t want to talk to anyone and at the same time it felt like there was so much that I needed to get off my chest. Twas terrible. Damn freakin’ quarter-life crisis.

I needed some R&R… so today, I was at the spa. Looovely. Body scrub, massage and french manicure. Twas nice. First time of full-out self-pampering and I figure that it was about damn time. So now I’m feeling a lot more mellow and relaxed. And hopefully my crappy mood will pass on by.

I need to go out and enjoy myself more. Like really. I NEED TO GO CLUBBING!!!

Speaking of… I know that the only places that interest me are R&B/hip-hop clubs. Yet I let my mom drag me to The.Pump.Room. Twas my 2nd time there and I knew the 1st time that it was not my kinda place. Just, no. I gots to get down y’alls. A live band is not really my scene. So there I was, standing in front of the band (yes, cos of my couz and my mom) and trying to enjoy myself but laughing like a hyena on the inside at the crazy antics of other people. AHAHAHAHAAA. Never again, my friends, never again.

I’ve been buying a lot of dresses. So now I need to go places where I can wear them. LOL. Damn, I have too much clothes but I can’t stop myself! Shopping soothes my sad sad soul.

Also, I really love the M5 album, even more than their debut. And I love Songs.About.Jane a lot.”" But the new one? Perfection. Adam has a way with lyrics and melodies and it’s just TEH AWESOME. If they come here, I WILL JUST DIE. DIEEEEEEE. But I will be happy. :)